My Palace, My symphony of life and the rhythm in My heart

Some Artworks for Valentine's Day 2012- Happy Valentine's Day ,everyone!

2012-02-07T13:48:00.007+08:00

Happy Chinese Valentine's day! (Happy Chap Goh Meh!)

Valentine's day is approaching, so what are you going to do with your loved one?

Some random drawings of the day~

Being sad as nobody dates you out on Valentine's Day? nah..Interesting quotes that I found online, haha, what do you think after reading these?

Being single does not mean no one wants you...it just means that God is busy writing your love story.

Being single is better than being in a broken relationship. Know your worth.

Being single doesn't mean you're alone. There may be someone behind you watching your back and willing to catch you the moment you fall.

Progress of my orthodontic treatment

2012-02-03T15:59:00.005+08:00

My orthodontic treatment had finally ended on 8th November 2011 where my braces were taken off. I am very satisfied with my current beautiful look of teeth! haha.. Now I could smile confidently instead of closing my mouth and dared not smile/ laugh due to the canine teeth.

I was given with a retainer which I need to wear it every night for two years in order to prevent my teeth moving back to its original place.

Orthodontic treatment had lasted for 20 months =)

Post related to orthodontic treatment :

http://lovewinter19.blogspot.com/2010/03/tooth-extraction-and-orthodontic.html

Recent photos with my broad smile which showed my teeth!!! =)

Haha.. I was on the cover page of magazine!!!

Believe what you see from your eyes! LOL

Okay, yeah, I know I need to keep fit!

Yet, I had no patience in doing exercise everyday. Huh~~

Anyway, I LOVE my teeth!!!

22nd Birthday

2011-12-19T14:54:00.001+08:00

I had the hobson's choice to admit that I am getting older and older. Time flies, and I aged 22nd today! How I wish I have a stopwatch to make time to stop awhile and continue later on.

It's the first time that I did not celebrate my birthday at home apart from the years I celebrated my birthday at my aunt's house. My roommate had waited till 12am and played birthday song on guitar to me. Well, all of us were busy rushing assignments and revision on the next day. Apart from that, I had received call from course mates in which a bunch of them shouted happy birthday in different languages to me. Felt touched of the warmness given by my friends!

After class, my roommates and I had participated in one of the programmes conducted by Sue Fern (SIFE Project i.e. Palm-palm Soap Project). A soap-making course was conducted with the help of a trainer to teach the housewives at an outskirts area nearby our uni. We witnessed the whole soap-making process, and had helped the housewives to hand-make soaps. Well, I hoped that the housewives will continue to join this project to make this project successful. After this meaningful project, we rushed back home to continue our revision. I was surprised to receive a Body Shop Perfume given by roommates and a card handmade by siew chen. Well, I hoped that our friendship can be strengthen and especially xxx can manage her time well between church work and course work.

At night, my parents had called to wish me 'happy birthday'. Then, my youngest sister had played songs on piano to me. My dad said that he hoped I could have a special birthday even though I study in a different state. Uh.. Luckily I was on the phone outside of the house, otherwise the others could see the tears running down my cheeks. My birthday ended with a long chat on the phone with my close buddy ; YY.

It's a special birthday I had celebrated with my friends and family and it's left an indelible mark in my heart and the memories will always etch in mind! It's great to feel being loved by family and friends around. Appreciate those who make my birthday so meaningful and happy this year!

From left: a spongebob mobile phone holder, and a spongebob tissue container

A watch which I love it very much,

perfume and a handmade birthday card given by my roommates!

Some craze before the end of year 2011

2011-12-13T01:54:00.000+08:00

The craze that I did with my roommie before the end of year 2011. We were having hectic revision for a terrible lecturer's 2nd test, however the presence of shooting stars during tonight had made us very excited. We ran out and ran into the house for several times, holding the book. Well, I was lucky as watched the first shooting star when my friend was facing me. And yea, it was fast like a lightning stroked over the sky, and it had gone within seconds. I forgot to make a wish! I remembered that I even widespread the news to some seniors, even posted wrongly at a club's website. Most were influenced to go out to have a look if there's any meteors, well, I guessed that they had no luck.

The second shooting star (her 's first view of shooting star) was happened too quick as well! and again, I missed the chance to make a wish. Huh, I have too many wishes to make! It was about 2am and my eye lids were very heavy. Anyway, we both managed to make a wish when viewed the third shooting star stoked over the sky at 3am!

I was wondered if 2012 is approaching, which is why we able to view meteor rains for twice in year 2011, and eclipse. I started to feel worry! I still want to be with my parents, my family, my friends, and lots more!

The craze during November and December

2011-12-03T18:34:00.002+08:00

The latest craze during November and December

Although it is convenient to buy things online, yet I dare not take the risk as I don't feel comfortable to give out my particulars especially identification numbers and account number. The lastest craze during the end of November till Christmas in my university had started by my course mates who found Reebonz website which gave out 50 free credits for each sign-up. The website had given out this promotion prior to the approaching christmas celebration; hence we decided to unveil the surprise! =)

The invitation link had spread to almost all of the girls within few days. The 50 credits were sufficient enough to buy some of the nice goods. Well, since it didn't require us to pay a single cent on some stuffs, the craze of ordering stuffs online had begun. My friends and I were attracted by the creative design of the watches, some facial cleansing products and cosmetic products.

The gang who found this cool website! =)

innershine =)

the watch and innershine that I bought using the credits

Able to guess what are these?

A pair of salt and pepper container!

I had ordered these to my mom as a christmas gift.

I had dropped a request at the comment box,

asking Reebonz to write 'Merry Christmas to you, Mom'.

Out of my expectation, Reebonz had written the greeting on a card!

My mom was surprised when opened the parcel ,

and once thought it's a bomb as it was wrapped with many plastic wrap-papers and newspapers.

Anyhow, she loves this gift.

Short review:I find this website selling many bags, wallets, coaches, watches and many other fashion pieces from various brands. If I am rich, I guess I will keep browsing this website and keep purchasing the coaches! One thing I would recommend this website to others is the short delivery time for the ordered parcels to be reached. In short, I gained a nice online-shopping experience!

the fun with photoshop brush

2011-11-04T19:27:00.008+08:00

When boredom strikes, creativity increases..（well, it's applied to me anyway =P)

Playing with the brush tools of Photoshop, and I came out with this picture.. (instead of the posters and bunting design for poster...huh)..

So, able to guess what message is carried by this picture?
Hehe... well, I guess everyone of us wishes to be an apple of someone's eye or an apple of everyone's eye..Alright, a snippet of the reasons that why everyone wishes to be an apple of someone's eyes. the sacred three words, the warmness that someone cares for you, someone missing you, the action that can makes the rains stream from your eyes. Oops, did I just blurp out my own thinking? =*

Well, I will still heave wistful sigh reminiscing over the good old days..Hmm..that's why there has tell me quando, quando, quando scribbled in the letters for Romeo..

Summer's gone with you

I will move on

Promise you,

you'll never be alone

I believe what you give

you will receive

That's why I'd give it all up

Do you believe in love

And all the things it does

It makes me feel like I'm alive

And when the night drives in

We let the games begin

You make me feel like I'm alive

♪ ♫♪ ♫♪ ♫ ♥ this song very much ♪ ♫♪ ♫♪ ♫♪ ♫

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A guy stood outside the gate of the house, shouting for the girl's name.

He wanted to give a bouquet of flowers to the girl on the her birthday.

It's supposed to be seeing a curve on the girl's face.
However, the girl couldn't even recognize the voice of the guy at the very first time.

The girl peeped from the windows.

The guy waved his hand.

The girl did not smile.

The girl did not feel touched either.

The friends of her opened the gate to let the guy came into the house.

She tried to reject the flowers.

The guy just said, 'keep it and it's yours' ; and left.

Obviously, the guy had been late for three quarter of the year.

He didn't know how much tears that the girl had been pouring for him.

He didn't realize the disappointment of the girl.

He didn't know the girl had been counting for the time he will arrive even though she received many flowers from other guys on the particular day.

He didn't understand that love is unable to be waited..

The girl has been waited for long enough to give him the chance to love her back...

But the hope has spoilt with the time passed...

And now, she has someone who knows how to appreciate her.

P/s: To my dear C.P. , wishing you have a great birthday and may you have felicity in the new relationship

Foods during university

2011-10-29T18:47:00.006+08:00

Just wanna have some snippets about the foods that I cooked during university life =)

All-in- 1 soup ( tauhu, vegetables, carrots, fish cakes, dried anchovies, tomatoes, mushroom) >> so healthy! ^^ - creative idea from me and Hui En..

tomato beans with fried eggs (adding black peppers make it taste good)

Dried Anchovies soup

Potato wedges..

I found that dipping the potatoes inside the egg will make it tasted more delicious!

hehe.. I love potatoes..

Oat fried rice.. TASTY!

Facebook pictures

2011-10-28T00:34:00.005+08:00

It's a boring night when I have to spend the night doing some reviews on Facebook vs. MySpace. Well, Facebook is like butter or bread for me ever since Facebook Connect is utilized by most websites I used to log on and even everything regards to class cancellation, class replacement or tips on exam are spread through Facebook. So, I definitely LOVE Facebook! haha..

Well, recently there are various pictures circulating around Facebook which have made me laughed, agreed upon or....

Isn't he looks cute and adorable?

He said, " Is time to keep fit, right?"
(p/s: wish my future son will not fat like this though..)

Well said, how many of us can accept each other's weakness / differences?

This reminded me of Mr. Sunny Lim who talked on this during the English tuition.Yea, it's true.. Men know nothing about girls.. Believe it not? hehe.. let's look at the picture below:

So, any guys understand women's language especially when they are in love with you..?

{p/s 1: only apply when the girl is truly loves you}

{p/s 2: some guys might get over-reacted when see this picture by pinpointing why women can't speak their heart out using words. Well, my suggestion is use your heart to feel what she wants/needs. Don't you feel tired if the one you love understand your needs/wants only if everything also said by words?}

A person shared this message to me, isn't this true? =) hehe.. SWEET~~

People always think that when you sleep together, there’s always something thatis happening in between the sheets and the bed. But let me tell you, It’s not always like that. The feeling of actually hugging each other until you fall asleep, the warmth of each other’s breath, and the total happiness in the morning when you wake up right beside them. Everything may sound so good to be true, but sometimes it takes a lot of responsibility and love to be able to be as wholesome as possible. Sleeping with your special someone is one of the most heartwarming experiences you’ll ever have. No nothing, simply hugging and smiling yourself to sleep.

Okay, the end of this short blog post.. Gotta complete my assignment by tonight~ Huh..

Men from Mars while women from Venus?

2011-10-23T21:45:00.003+08:00

Found two interesting picture on Facebook today, well, peeps, do you agree with the statements in the picture?

when in love

when break-up happens...

Men from Mars while women from Venus! ^^

2011-10-16T13:47:00.001+08:00

Indeed the statement is so true, but why do we always make someone as priority while he or she just makes us like an option for them? huh..

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2011-10-16T12:25:00.007+08:00

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SIFE WORLD CUP 2011

2011-10-06T17:37:00.005+08:00

Malaysia had been hosting for SIFE World Cup Competition for the first time which had held at KLCC from 3rd- 5th Oct. 2011. A total of 2500 students from other 38 countries had come to compete for the world cup! It's a golden opportunity for us to participate as observers to imbibe knowledge,generate new ideas, learn the various countries' cultures!

Okay, I guess some will be wondering what SIFE stands for? It's the acronym of Students in Free Enterprise, a non profit organization which is dedicated to bringing together the top leaders of today and tomorrow to create a better, more sustainable world through the positive power of business.SIFE teams' projects address a variety of topics and issues, with their primary focus on effectively empowering people in need by applying business and economic concepts and an entrepreneurial approach to improve their quality of life and standard of living, all while considering the relevant economic, social and environmental factors.

The SIFE World Cup Competition 2011 Opening Ceremony Highlights

look at the beautiful traditional costumes they were wearing!

Personally, I love the Kazakhstan's the most!

Special Session on harnessing business and entrepreneurship to eliminate poverty on Tues. Panelists include James Shikwati, IREN Kenya; Rupendra Singh, KPMG Foundation India; Doug Pitt; Entrepreneur and Philanthropist; and Carin Van Vuuren, Landor Associates.

Just like what Carin Van Vuuren had said, when we are doing something, we have to understand the purposes of doing it. In other words, whatever we do, it's just around the question of " What if..." Well, it put me in deep thought for some moment.

Our country's team has been selected from its league as the 1st finalist for the semi-finalist, however we failed to compete till the final. The University of Regensburg from Germany has been named the SIFE World Cup 2011 Champion, followed by Zimbabwe getting the second place, Puerto Rico (3rd Place) and Guatemala being the 4th finalist. Their projects are well-presented and I am really impressed of the Zimbabwe's team's confidence in answering the judges ' questions! I am also amazed by the innovativeness of Puerto Rico 's team in helping the Haiti's people making bracelets, necklace which are made of tin. The presentation of Guatemala is really nice and I felt so comfortable with the clear pronunciation of the team. And of course, the presentation of Germany around the theme of ' tearing down the wall and open the gate of opportunity' is really awesome!

Last but not least, I would say that it's an awesome event! I am truly proud that I am one of the Sifers.. SIFE teams around the world put a tremendous amount of time and energy to empower people in need by improving their communities' standards of living by implementing the business and economic concepts and also showing concern to the harbinger of our nature! For me, SIFE is not only a platform for me to improve my communicative skills in English, but also fosters the ideas generation and self-confidence.

(to be continued)

Disappointment has flooded my heart!

2011-09-17T12:57:00.003+08:00

New semester had started and I am currently a 3rd year university student. Somehow I am very disappointed with the management of the faculty of my university. The timetable is released during the 1st day of university reopens, and the newly built faculty building is unable to be used ( need to be examined by Bomba and don't have tables/chairs yet...) Apart from that, the subjects registration or session problems are like a norm , never be improved in this new semester as well. Ok, I would say that i am rather disappointed than happy! Much to my disappointment, I just had attended 2 classes during the 1st week of university restarts. Some friends from other faculties had their lessons started as well, but our course are still on holidays! Hmm..it's inevitable for me to have the fallacy of thinking that the semester break has not ended. Or perhaps lecturers are still on holidays!

We paid to study in university, and yet lecturers aren't being responsible to teach lessons. It's said to be lecturers will be very busy during the 1st week, and may resume classes during the second week. Yet, one of my lecturers had been telling us that he might not have lesson on during Monday. Huh...

What's the point of coming back earlier to prepare for new semester?
What's the point of being a hardworking student while lecturers are so lazy?!

D.A.M.N!!! I feel very unmotivated!

Disappointment has flooded my heart!~

University long semester break 2

2011-09-10T01:14:00.002+08:00

During Long Semester Break

Chapter 2

Hereby, I would like to remark my working life in the territory of mine. With the intention to enhance my English and communicative skills, I had gone to Synovate, Menara IGB; KL ( an international market research company) to work with my friend, Yee Lin from 16th June- 27th Aug2011. The assistant manager is kinda strict, well, I would say that she's a perfectionist who wants everything to be neatly organized. The FEs especially Cik Nurul, Sashi and Mahesh are very friendly and helpful, as well as the colleagues there.

At first, I was very nervous and had no confidence in making calls. I was slow in interviewing and had bad pronunciation in making certain calls, in which the errors were pointed out by mentor; Cik Nurul and she guided me how to make successful calls. Well, through peers and guidance from the Field Executives, I had gained courages and had been assigned to handle more projects. Well, to my delights, Cik Nurul had congratulated me that I showed more confidence in speaking and had better interviewing and probing skills.

Thanks to yee lin who helped me alot when facing difficulties during work. And yea, without her, May Lai, Uma, Chandrakala, Shazwan and a bunch of funny malay colleagues; my working life will be very dull. We always chat during work, sharing bits of life, and of course, we had been scolded by a fierce FE- Rainnee sometimes. YET, it was a wonderful working experience.

University long semester break 1

2011-08-22T12:33:00.009+08:00

During Long Semester Break

Chapter 1

Aha, finally I am continuing back with my abandoned blog after 3 months. Time flies like lightning strikes, the 4-month holidays are going to end soon. Anyway, this has been long overdue and as of right now I need to remind myself of all the things that I had done during the holidays.

So I started with the trips/ retreat I had gone to...

The semester break started since May 2011, the 4 sistaz went to malacca with the assistance of Lucas Goh right after our final exams. Well, this trip has been planned since 2nd semester, and it's eventually, successfully organized! I had been reaching Malacca earlier than the others and I could say that the time I spent there is much memorable. ( During these days, I had been visited Malacca beach, ate satay celup,mile crepes,ice kacang and etc.)

Yummy!!! I miss the foods there!

The trip with hui en, siew chen and chia pei was full of laughters and we got to know more about Lucas Goh; the smart guy in our course. We went to Malacca Mahkota, some historical places such as A famosa, muziums, and etc, Jonker streets, and much more. Honestly, I kept remembered of the ramen that Lucas brought us to eat. Yeap, I am missing it very much. Oh yeah, I miss the duck noodles. Too bad that I couldn't remember the route to go there, otherwise I could bring my parents go =) Thanks to his great fraternization with others, we had the chance to get discounts when went to eat sushi buffets at the shop his friend works.

Hui En and I

(Most photos are still with SC and Hui En)

Anyway, this trip to Malacca meant alot to me. I hope that kiwi will join us to the Bali trip we plan to go next year! We are going to spend another year and half year to spend with, shall make some memories imprint in our life =)

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26th May 2011- 2nd June 2011

I am delighted to be one of the members who had selected to join the Indonesia Outreach Programme (26th May 2011 to 1st June 2011). It is plausible to say that this programme is the most interesting and meaningful event that I ever had experienced since I stepped into tertiary education. We have been sharing our knowledge or information with our neighbor country; Indonesia’s friends about recycling, HIV &AIDS, water issues, nutrition and future planning apart from cultivating the interests of continuous learning in some poorer friends at Medan. It‘s a good thing to learn caution from the misfortunes of others, this makes me feel appreciative for what I own (have) now.

I had learnt boundless knowledge by cooperating with the other Sifers such as how they remained being resilient when entangled with difficulties in running the programmes and the perseverance of everyone to make this programme a success. Furthermore, the teamwork had been showed by everyone as all efforts are consolidated in innovating new ideas or solutions to help each other especially those who face presentation problems in Yayasan Pendidikan Shafiyyatul Amaliyyah and Al-Alum. From this unprecedented programme, I am able to learn the culture of Medan; Indonesia such as their foods, languages and etcetera. Nevertheless, I have learnt from this programme i.e. we have many ambitious desires which are achievable in life and we should keep pursuing stoically and appreciate what we have right now because the starting point of all achievements is faith in self. Last but not least, I am proud to be a Sifer!

Well, the 1st photo is the tired looks of everyone during discussion of each night.

at UNIMED

Group photos at a shop which sells something which looks like milk

introduction to students of UNIMED

socializing with volunteers of UNIMED

At Al-Alum

At Yayasan Pendidikan Shafiyyatul Amaliyyah

Lake Toba's scenery..love the serenity of the environment

with scott,wei lin,sue fern and ying min

nice smiles from everyone=)

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The 3rd trip is with my dearest family which is to Singapore...

(to be continued...)

4 month holidays

2011-05-24T17:53:00.004+08:00

Read back facebook comments then only I noticed the special date 0520..Well, I think that might be a special night yumcha session that I never try before in my life. Today,I listed down a memo about what I would like to improve during this long holidays. First, I will need to learn some soft skills including how to utilize photoshop, sony vegas studio, adobe aftereffects software; and enhance my speaking skills. (someone introduced me a job i.e. surveyor..and I am still unsure should I go for this job)..

Secondly, I am thinking of enhancing my self-confidence and maturity. Uhh.. I just found that I can't control well my emotion where I will just be freaked out of unexpected things. Found a long list of websites that teaching how one's can enhance the maturity:

http://www.wikihow.com/Be-Mature

I like the way it teaches..Yea, I am just myself.. I can't act mature, maturity depends on experience.

Thirdly,I need to learn some sports.. Cycling vs swimming.. I am gonna take the latter one first. =) I am so eager to go to beach, yet the only activity I can do there is just looking at the scene and collect the seashells. Hoping that I can swim next time. At Sabah beach or the upcoming Phuket Island?

I am not perfect, neither u are..

But I am willing to improve myself..

To be a better person..

Forthly, I have broke my promise to join the japanese club and pursue second level of Japanese Language. Now, I think of utilizing the 4 months to have profound understanding in this langauage again.

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The previous semester result had been released and I am satisfied with the overall results except for Production and Operation Management. I know I can do better in the final paper, yet unexpectedly I made so many silly mistakes. Huh. Bad~ I shall have quoted " no pain, no gain".. I gained better results this time..

The recent case made me understanding that I should not forget what I had once, appreciate what I couldn't own, do not give up which I think it is belonged to, and learn from the mistakes I have ever made.

- will not be around for a week++.. for Medan Outreach Programme..-

- I'm somehow looking for a place that I can relax..Huh-

Mother's day contest

2011-05-22T12:04:00.004+08:00

I finally back to KL after the hectic exam weeks and malacca trip. Today, went to Selayang Mall's Poh Kong to redeem the prize that I won for Mother's Day Contest "Shining Mums". The terms to join this contest was to share out with a short story and choose gold/diamond/jade or pearl to describe our mothers to win for the best slogan award or best shining smiles. I was one of the winner for the best shining slogan in the contest. The slogan I wrote was as the followings:

'Pearl ‘best represents my mom, because this symbol of unblemished perfection emanates the enchanting beauty and uniquesness of my mom.
Mom, profusely thank you for:

Path of glory that you directed me when I was lost,
Enduring words of encouragement when I faced difficulties,
Aspirations of life you guided me in astonishing proportion,
Rhythm of confidence you built in me to embrace the challenges in life,
Love that you showered me since the day you gave birth to me.

Well, the feeling for winning a prize for mom instead of myself is indescribable using words. I would like to thank Poh Kong profusely for this meaningful contest as I never give my mom the pressie she desires the most, kiss or words that said ' I love u,mom'.. This contest had given me the chance to write some sincere words about my mom, and thank her publicly.

Mom was delighted when she opened the gorgeous present box. She was actually surprised that I won in the contest instead of buying it myself. =P Haha.. it was really great when seeing my mom trying to wear the pearl necklace and she commented that she loves the pearl necklace! Yeah! Nothing is more precious than looking your own parents proud and happy because of you done just a little thing for them.

Here's the necklace given by Poh Kong.. * I love it too..* I am looking forward for the upcoming events from Poh Kong and do hope that Poh Kong will continue organizing such meaningful contests.

Mindy Gledhill- All About Your Heart ( Nie version)

2011-04-24T01:17:00.006+08:00

Mindy Gledhill- All About Your Heart( Nie version)

Another sweet,soft and gentle song that I played it all days long..*like*

I don't mind your odd behavior
Its the very thing I love
If you were an ice cream flavor
You would be my favorite one

My imagination sees you
Like a painting by Van Gogh
Starry nights and bright sunflowers
Follow you where you may go

Oh, I've loved you from the start
In every single way
And more each passing day
You are brighter than the stars
Believe me when I say
Its not about your scars
Its all about your heart

You are a butterfly held captive
Small and safe in your cocoon
Go on you can take your time
Time is said to heal all wounds

Chorus

Like a lock without a key
Like a mystery without a clue
There is no me if I cannot have you

Chorus

No matter how hurt is the scar but the heart that matters most..

Quoted from Michelle Lim

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Recently, indulging in reading up lyrics and quotes..Somehow, the words touched the heart.

Anyway, gotta pen-off here for at least a month.. Gonna put full focus on studies.. =)

I WANNA GET 3.5 ++ AGAIN! Have faith in heart~

Mustn't spoil my own future with my own hands, so may the heart listen to me to stay calm with concentrated minds too~

Strangers, again

2011-04-22T23:04:00.004+08:00

The video had illustrated the stages that a relationship will go through. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable. Well, we started out being strangers and eventually we are strangers to each other again.. Hmm..

- The cbox will be deleted upon too many unknown's advertisement postings..-

miss the previous comments in the cbox, yet all were covered by the ads..huh...

The Kübler-Ross Model

2011-04-15T19:34:00.006+08:00

The busy week had been finally ended after completing the tons of assignments. Today, my housemates and I had been going to two famous temples in Batu Pahat in order to soothe our minds. This would be a hard semester for me to go through but I believe that I can progress further if I hold tight on the belief. Everything happens for a reason.. Hmm, the reason, i shall let the time to prove it or perhaps there's never have an answer for that. Anyway, I got the fortune tally which shows me better future ahead, and I hope it will truly happen to me =)

Life is just as fragile as the heart. R.I.P hui en's friend. Sometimes, we often dwell over the past and could not fill the depression with joys, and eventually end our life. During the sad moments, what we need the most are someone who can give us positive comforts and advices, or just a pair of ears to listen to us. I would say that friends and family play important roles as they are the ones who will be there as listeners and supporters when you feeling so down as if the world is ending.

Hereby, I would like to share an article that I read at noon i.e. 'The Kübler-Ross Model', which is commonly known as the The Five Stages Of Grief. I found that most of us will experience the stages below depressively when undergo some significant events.

The 5 stages, popularly known in its abbreviated form DABDA, include:

Denial — "I feel fine."; "This can't be happening, not to me."
Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of positions and individuals that will be left behind after death.
Anger — "Why me? It's not fair!"; "How can this happen to me?"; '"Who is to blame?"
Once in the second stage, the individual recognizes that denial cannot continue. Because of anger, the person is very difficult to care for due to misplaced feelings of rage and envy. Any individual that symbolizes life or energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.
Bargaining — "Just let me live to see my children graduate."; "I'll do anything for a few more years."; "I will give my life savings if..."
The third stage involves the hope that the individual can somehow postpone or delay death. Usually, the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle. Psychologically, the individual is saying, "I understand I will die, but if I could just have more time..."
Depression — "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"; "I'm going to die... What's the point?"; "I miss my loved one, why go on?"
During the fourth stage, the dying person begins to understand the certainty of death. Because of this, the individual may become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the time crying and grieving. This process allows the dying person to disconnect from things of love and affection. It is not recommended to attempt to cheer up an individual who is in this stage. It is an important time for grieving that must be processed.
Acceptance — "It's going to be okay."; "I can't fight it, I may as well prepare for it."
In this last stage, the individual begins to come to terms with his mortality or that of his loved one.

Okay, I seems like still being around the stage of denial, anger and bargaining. Huh! Bad progress, but I wish for the day that I will say " I am fine" and I truly mean what i spoken that time.

You can’t change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future.

“Never allow anyone to rain on your parade and thus cast a pall of gloom and defeat on the entire day. Remember that no talent, no self-denial, no brains, no character, are required to set up in the fault-finding business. Nothing external can have any power over you unless you permit it. Your time is too precious to be sacrificed in wasted days combating the menial forces of hate, jealously, and envy. Guard your fragile life carefully. Only God can shape a flower, but any foolish child can pull it to pieces.”

Og Mandino quotes

Too Much to Ask

2011-04-03T20:50:00.002+08:00

Too Much to Ask

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely

I wish someone could cure this pain

Its funny when you think its gonna work out

Til you chose weed over me, you're so lame

I thought you were cool until the point

But up until the point you didnt call me

When you said you would

I finally figured out youre all the same

Always coming up with some kind of story

Everytime I try to make you smile

You're always feeling sorry for yourself

Everytime I try to make you laugh

You can't

Youre too tough

You think you're loveless

Is that too much that I'm asking for?

I thought you'd come around when I ignored you

So I thought you'd have the decency to change

But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning

'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself

You can't see the world through a mirror

It wont be too late when the smoke clears

'Cause I, I am still here

But everytime I try to make you smile

You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself

Everytime I try to make you laugh

You stand like a stone

Alone in your zone

Is it too much that I'm asking for?

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can't find where i am

Lying here

Alone I fear

Afraid of the dark

No one to claim

Alone again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself

You can't see the world through a mirror

It wont be too late when the smoke clears

'Cause I, I am still here

Everytime I try to make you smile

You're always feeling sorry for yourself

Everytime I try to make you laugh

You can't

You're too tough

You think you're loveless

It was too much that I'm asking for

this fits my life like you don't know.

Sometimes we had to say Goodbye in order to move on

2011-03-27T23:28:00.008+08:00

Guess that You Don't Even Bother

I never have the chance to say goodbye,

Perhaps you are just meant too much,

But sooner or later I’m gonna have to let go,

In order to move on my journey,

Instead of holding tight to the past.

My heart is an open window,

Things just come and go,

But nobody ever stays like he/she promises.

But if you stop by and listen to it carefully,

You will notice it is broken piece by piece.

No one is going to last forever,

People leave and people change.

Sometimes,

we're left alone wondering why our life became hell,

But sometimes we are left wondering

how we met the people that shaped us,

made us into who we are now.

Sometimes,

I don't even know how could the story ever started,

and how it ended with...and do you want to know the worst part?
i never got my last goodbye, no i love you, no nothing.
just tears, pain and heart ache.

Loving you doesn't scare me,

Just the thought that you don’t love me, it does.

I think about you more than i should

but my mind doesn't seem to care, and neither do I.

Sometimes, i wonder if you love me for the things i've done

or that you love me because of who I am;

Or because I am the person who see's you

for everything you don’t see yourself as.

Yeah, life is just like a merry-go-round,

with ups and downs...

People used to say stand up where you fell,

but I would say lie there till there's the time to stand up again.

Some people wish for luxury,

And others wish for health,

But what do i wish for? I wish for you to be happy.

So that I will be too...=)

Love shouldn't hurt like it does

our canon in d

2011-03-26T21:07:00.013+08:00

Boredom stroked inevitably when faced the tons of on-hand assignments. Reading back some abandoned blogs, bits and pieces of memories just appeared in my minds again. Instead of reminiscing over it again, I spent my noon for watching two episodes of Ghost Whisperer (A newlywed with the ability to communicate with the earthbound spirits of the recently deceased overcomes scepticism and doubt to help send their important messages to the living and allow the dead to pass on to the other side). Well, the plots of each episode just touched my heart and i got with weary eyes. Uhh.. what will you wish to tell your husband/wife if you passed away and didn't get a chance to say goodbye? The old man requested Melinda to help her to pass the message to his wife," Tell her I want her to keep having a glass of champagne every friday night, I want her to light the fire as we always did, and make our secret toast to the moon and stars like we always did. And tell her never to feel alone. "

Death might be just the final destiny we would go through,

but will we leave with no regrets?

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you?

_________________________________________________

Aaron Angello - Our Canon in D

I wrote a song for you

I don't know if you'll listen to

But if you do

I don't think you

Will understand the poetry

Don't think I'll let you go

So easily, girl you don't know

The depths to which

I understand

Just how much you were meant for me

I had a dream last night

That we somehow had made it right

And everything

Was new and green

And we could dance eternally

But then the sun came out

And I woke up to face the doubt

That you and I

Would ever see

Each other as we used to be

#Chorus:

Can't understand

How the feeling that we know we had

Could just be abandoned

Be tossed into the wind

So easily

It cannot be

You know it meant too much

When in the end

After everything is said and done

See, we chose to spend

An eternity without

A melody

A symphony

A life without our Canon in D

I've heard a story told

About a staircase made of gold

That winds its way

Up through the clouds

And stops at Heaven's door

And if some day I stand

Before that door without your hand

Wrapped up in mine

I'll sit right down

And wait forever more

Repeat #chorus

See

The sun is sinking low

It's time for me to go

And try

To just get by

Bye

Just had some fairy tale dream on my mind again..I guess all girls are the same, hoping to capture stacks of photos with the loved ones and perhaps have some nice moments to be displayed through videos during wedding. I wish this song will be sung by my prince one day..Perhaps someone play this song with guitar =)

Reflections of Moments in Life‏

2011-03-21T00:42:00.003+08:00

Reflections of Moments in Life‏

Here goes:

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a God send and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be..

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on..

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.They may teach you something you have never done.They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Believe it, it is real.. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.Your job is to accept the lesson,love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

bad mood

2011-03-20T01:40:00.003+08:00

Okay, sometimes feelings are just hard to be expressed through words..

My mood today was as bad as the weather. =(

mixture~

2011-03-12T11:18:00.008+08:00

Today, we had an interview for our hubungan etnik assignment regarding hokkien with a superb woman. She doesn't look like someone who is having sickness from the way she talked, and she is open-minded to share with us about her experience, opinions about life, family, love and even relationship. My friends and I are very agreed with one of the sentences she said in which," 婚姻最后的不是爱情，而是一种责任、依赖、感情和习惯。" It means a relationship/ marriage is not composed of love after all, it is left with responsibility, dependency, feeling and customary. Seriously, I hope that the one I am going to be together for the whole life is someone who can share his happiness and sadness with me (sharing thoughts), communicate with me whenever problem arises, comfort me or hold me tight when I am in need of his supports. Somehow, what she said is really meaningful, the moment you are with this person, you are sure that you love her/him, but could you be sure that you will still love her/him next month, next year or 1 year after or....?!

She had shared with us about how she communicate with her sons who were sent to singapore to study. For me, her educational method is differed from my mom who stresses about my studies and I don't be allowed to hang out or watch tv during exam periods while she lets her children to have their own ways to study and give pressures when in need. uh... I feel amazed by her sons who can be so independent of their parents. This is the quote found from her fb info, giving me and my gang some thoughts again...=)

最觉得被爱的，
不是他吻你或云雨缠绵时，
而是他轻轻伸出手，
把你的手紧握在掌中，
珍而重之！
用心握过你手之人，
即使无缘，
他心里必定爱过你！

我爱你,不光因为你的样子，还因为，和你在一起时，我的样子。我爱你，不光因为你为我而做的事，还因为，为了你，我能做成的事。我爱你，因为你能唤出，我最真的那部分。我爱你，因为你穿越我心灵的旷野，如同阳光穿透水晶般容易。 ——[爱尔兰]罗伊·克里夫特

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The magnitude-8.9 offshore quake struck at 2:46 p.m. local time and was the biggest to hit Japan since record-keeping began in the late 1800s. It ranked as the fifth-largest earthquake in the world since 1900 and was nearly 8,000 times stronger than one that devastated Christchurch, New Zealand, last month, scientists said.

‎* 现在全东京电话都不能用，只有网络。所有人这时候都在走路回家，电车瘫痪。日本人只担心没食物。店长还很敬业的开店，怕大家没食物吃。只有超市关门，货物都倒了，无法营业。

*几百人在广场避震完毕，整个过程，无一人抽烟。服务员在跑，拿来一切毯子，热水，饼干。所有男人帮助女人，跑回大楼为女人拿东西，接来电线放收音机。几个小时后，人散，地上没有一片垃圾。

* 地震後，日本三得利公司宣布所有販售機將免費供應飲料！日本的711和全家全部免费提供食品和饮水！渴了，自动贩卖机免费；饿了，便利店免费；累了，大超市开放避难；寂寞了，公众电话免费；听不懂日语，电视台中文喊话教怎么避难。這就是國家形象，日本雖然受災，日本人卻給世人上了一課。
.........
* 一日本网友说：说句心里话，虽然我在日本，但其实庆幸是发生在日本，不然死伤人数肯定很恐怖，我相信全世界只有日本才可以把死伤降到最低！

这就是亚洲强国的力量！

The attitudes of how Japanese lending out their helping hands to each other after the devastation of the earthquake disaster should be learnt by all of us. The spirits, the kind-heartness, disciplines embedded in them shall be learnt by us when we face any disaster in time. When we questioned that how could their country's people have the ability to do so even they face the disaster, we often get the answer i.e." their education is better, their technology is more sophisticated,they had experienced all these disasters and they have predicted this might happen, their president are more charismatic, their country is at top rank of development"... I would say that all these answers are just excuses! Well, not to mention the country's name, experiencing various times of flood, I don't see the government have done any better approaches in handling all these. Moreover, this is just a small natural disaster compared to earthquakes, tsunami, eruption of volcanoes and etc. Huh..i opine that a developing (developed) country is not having a nice palace, huge and tall buildings, but have the appropriate approaches to aid its people whenever disaster come.

Anyway, truly bless and pray for Japan and hopefully the quake will not affect other countries which lie on "the ring of fire".

p/s: When you hear about the happening of this disaster, who is the one who appear in your mind? Do appreciate the people that you love! Life may just gone within seconds ...

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Had been exhausted because of loads of assignments to rush with,tests preparations, interviews, Sife thingy, and on 11/3/2011-my health's alarm has been shown up red alert... Cough+ Flu + fever...=( I hope my body could be recovered before next Tuesday.. Gonna prepare for test~

p/s: thanks to chia pei who cooked porridge for me as I lost my taste buds during sick..Indeed, I felt the warmth of the sisterly friendship. Honestly, I felt touched!

I know miracles don't happen, but I'm still waiting to see if you'll make an effort.

Motivation

2011-03-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

When I woke up this morning
lying in bed,I asked myself:
What are some of the secrets of success in life?
I found the answer right there, in my very room.

** The Fan said:
Be Cool
** The Roof said:
Aim High
** The Window said:
See The World
** The Cook said:
Every minute is precious
** The Mirror Said:
Reflect before you act
** The Calendar Said:
Be Up To Date
** The Door said:
Push hard for your Goal

Carry a Heart that Never Hates.
Carry a Smile that Never Fades.
Carry a Touch that Never Hurts.
HAVE A PURPOSEFUL DAY!

# Quoted from Dhamma TI

写给自己的信

2011-02-27T22:42:00.005+08:00

写给自己的信。。。

忽然，很想醉，是因为早已心碎；

忽然，很想睡，是因为心里早已疲惫，

忽然，很想喝一杯咖啡，是因为要映衬内心的苦味；

忽然，很想一个人颓废，是因为再没有什么人让我不累！

由于寂寞,我选择了挣脱.

由于清醒,我选择了沉思.

由于看不见未来,我选择了放弃.

由于放弃,我选择了眼泪.

由于割舍,我选择了释然.

由于释然,我选择了坚强.

心里很明白，心内的那个小孩不快乐了很久很久。几乎有好几个月都处于悲伤状态~

一個人，不管做什麼，
一定會有正面的評價與負面的評價；

何必那么在乎？然而我在意每个人对我的评价~

当得不到别人的认同，内心感觉空虚，

是缺乏了活出自己的勇气，

或者是想要证明些什么。

此外，对（失去）逝去的东西还抱着希望，

明知道那只会带来失望，还期待什么？！

如果能重来

你选择如何地去对待

你是否会把之前的回忆抛开

你又是否会确保不会奢求更多的重来

到底要有多少次重来

我们才会真正地去接受

眼前的事实/真相.

最近的事情，让我很疲倦、很想放弃。

呐喊过、流泪过、堕落过。。。

说过自己要坚强，不再去寻找答案、不去对不相信的人解释。。。

我一定要办到。

只能当去年是人生中不可避免的起承转和期，

不能再放纵自己那么的懦弱、忧郁，

两次就够了，但两次的伤害带来的痛苦，

也不及懦弱的自己带给自己的压抑的心情、压力来的大。

有那么疼我的父母，家人，还要哀怨吗？

该改变自己的想法，希望能金蝉脱壳，还回真实的自己。

我活着，不是为了你们的欢呼声、掌声，

而是为了自己的将来。

Songs

2011-02-24T21:37:00.005+08:00

Thanks to xiu wen who shared this @fb..Finally found this song which I kept humming the chorus part recently. Hmm.. didn't notice that JS do have many nice songs until I checked from youtube.

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间那条界线
慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉
在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好像只是昨天
我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你
浪花掠过沙滩边境(海风就像你的呼吸)
我又看见我们的脚印(那曾是回忆的痕迹)
如果遇见幸福的机率要千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你
我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你
woo~~~~
终于发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你

所有的“我不懂”其实还是有一点懂；

每一次“我不在乎”背后都有一点点在乎;

每一次“我没事”背后都还是有那么一点伤痛。

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I wish that I could play this song on guitar~

也许有一天　我会爱上你
也许有一天　我们在一起
也许有一天　等一个也许
也许有一天　我们都忘记

如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹

也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记

就算一切都会过去　还是应该伤心
当你睁开你的眼睛　看一看我的心

如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹　（我等的是奇迹）

也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记

也许有一天　我们都忘记

能不忘记吗？

being understanding

2011-02-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

Well, everyone of us is created with different attitudes, personalities, and etc. Sometimes,we get frustrated, down, depressed that why people don't understand us, but we couldn't blame them as not everyone could put themselves in our shoes.Some people believe that you have to experience what i experience in order to understand how they feel and not by just the phrase "I understand how you feel.." or " it will be the past soon, you will get over it". Sometimes, i feel people are so selfish that they only think about themselves but not the feelings of others. I read from an recent article, perhaps if i put it in a nicer way, maybe they are just not understanding enough and they can't put themselves in your shoes.

Well, I am not a perfect person who always fail in managing my emotions, but at least I am going to try my best to be understanding enough. ^^..( Hopefully I will reduce my question of asking ' Why can't you understand me?'). After all, I just felt funny after I asked that, as the answers from others might be" why should I understand you?!"... SILLY ME..

Nah, I am trying to improve myself to be a better person. A person who aged up to 21 right now is supposed to have maturity to handle stress and emotions well.. Hmm, hopefully I can improve in this.

2011-02-21T22:33:00.004+08:00

Recently edited the picture above with different effects, somehow looking at it, I felt calm..(I don't know why..)

There are some interesting and meaningful phrases I read from Facebook :

不要做刺猬 ,能不与人结仇就不与人结仇 ,谁也不跟谁一辈子 ,有些事情没必要记在心上 ...
没有十全十美的东西，没有十全十美的人，关键是清楚到底想要什么。得到想要的，肯定会失去另外一部分。如果什么都想要，只会什么都得不到。
纠缠，如同一根橡皮筋，时刻拉着自己，稍点就感受到那紧迫的束缚，让人感觉厌倦和疲劳，慢慢的就会开始有了逆反心理，然而这一种紧密的力量把这样的两个人连在一起，系在了一起。一个拽，一个跑，彼此因为对方感觉到自己的存在，不空虚，不寂寞.
真正的矛盾，不是不理解一个人，而是你不会宽容它的缺点

Anyway,calvin, if you read my blog, i wish to tell you that let's just entail forgiving the person. Perhaps we shall cheer for knowing the truth earlier although we hate accepting all that had happened, take care..We experience a loss or betrayal and are filled with hurt and anger. We blame the person who wronged us as the cause of our pain. At this point, we're not considering that we have a choice about how to respond. We're just feeling wounded by the offense.

ps: Thanks to er xuan who sent me this article..

My sun is rising up again...
Thanks to those who have shared many meaningful articles, their bittersweet stories with me..
The aids you all gave, the trust you all have in me, the supports you all gave...
I really felt touched and appreciative with the presence of you all.
Thank you..
I will be fine and learn to be tough..

sadness

2011-02-18T21:41:00.003+08:00

In drama, movies, and so on
the actors always claimed that they are having heartache during certain circumstances,
but how many know what it really feels like
it's like the chambers of your heart
shrinking immediately with no blood can pass through,
suffocating is the best described
and
do you know
I feel that every time

when realizing that there's none I really can trust of...

and there's none I can share my sorrows with..

The world is cruel with so many double-faced person around..

The person you are trusted with may actually doing so many tactics behind..

My life is sickening with the presence of you.. I really hate what you have done..

And the person I cared the most doesn't trust in what i said and done..

the sorrow will pass,

the happiness will soon follow,

and being me,

just await the time,

for the dark to go.

无题

2011-02-13T22:51:00.003+08:00

对于残酷的事实，

我只能接受。。。

我很想为自己辩解什么，

可是错归根于自己。。

一切的发生，其实是自己给了机会让这一切发生，

不能责怪任何人，自己的愚蠢害了自己，

很累，真的很想到一个无烦恼的国度。

i am sorry, my family..sorry to make you all worry of me. I will be tough.

2011-02-10T21:50:00.001+08:00

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i am sorry, my family..sorry to make you all worry of me. I will be tough.

photoshop trial 1

2011-02-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

Woohoo.. I had made some attempts to use photoshop to create some artistic pieces with the aid of youtube tutorials...^^

i like the quotes above..copied from a website^^

‎2♥11

2011-02-05T15:15:00.004+08:00

Some memories are meant to be kept in mind and embedded in heart~

When I don't message you,it doesn't mean that I forgot about you.
I was just giving us some time to miss each other,
My love for you is a journey, starting at forever and ending at never.

我不是碰不到更好的，

而是因为已经有了你，

我不想再碰到更好的...

我不是不会对别人动心，
而是因为已经有了你，
我就觉得没必要再对
其他人动心...

我不是不会爱上别的人，
而是我更加懂得珍惜你，
能在一起不容易，
已经选定的人我就不随便放手...

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Lost of mobile phone Nokia 6120

2011-02-01T23:32:00.004+08:00

As Chinese New Year is approaching, mom has been busy baking cookies again! Hehe.. I really felt thankful to have a wonderful mom who is great in baking cookies! I will be having coffee almond cookies, kuih bangkit 番婆饼, green pea cookies, almond cookies, cornflakes cookies and etcetera. Somehow looking at the tolerance existing between parents, I felt glad of it. (Dad tolerates with mom who likes baking many cookies to her siblings... Well, if you count the prices of the materials to bake cookies and preparation for CNY eve's food, somehow will feel heartache.) hmm...

With the lost of Nokia 6120, I am like losing something that is very important to me.. Is that because of the messages and photos that I kept inside the mobile phone? or due to the songs that ever being shared with? Hmm...well, I told my dearie godsis, siew teng about the lost of handphone and missed the contents of it, and she told me that she believed everything inside the mobile phone did not disappear but had been embedded inside my heart. Hmm.. yeap, what she said was true! With the lost of it, I realized how much I had treasured those messages,photos, songs, everything of it! Sighed..

不要问我为什么，

我就是这样傻傻的，

依旧认为有一天，

折翼的爱情，

也有复原的一天。

什么时候我会以曾经来形容它呢？

Songs

2011-01-31T00:33:00.005+08:00

There are something which are impressive that I wish to share with..

1)Listen by Jess Lee

I love her singing..indeed she is very talented in singing! She really touched my heart with her songs!

2)勇敢by Jess Lee

This song was previously sang by Ah Mei. I noticed this going-to-be superstar from Facebook fan page few days ago. It's a touching song and the lyrics are well written. (This song had me making approaches to reach out for the person that day. )Hmm.. I love the way she sang!

3) A Japanese song lyrics to be shared.. Well, I was shocked of knowing the meaning of the lyrics after looking at the translation. Thanks Jen Wei for introducing this song to me..

Spontania - Now And Forever (feat. Ito Yuna)

Lyrics: Spontania, Ito Yuna, Jeff Miyahara
Music: Spontania, Ito Yuna, Jeff Miyahara, RYLL, coco

I won’t forget you for as long as I live
We can’t go back
You will always be close to my heart
Even now

I always took it for granted
Seeing you happily by my side

Then I started to see it all change
I wanted to warm your hand that was always shivering

Even if I love someone else, I can’t let you be just a memory
It doesn’t matter where I end up, I just want to see you again

*Even now I want to see you, I’ve been thinking about you
Even now I still haven’t forgotten that Love Song
My lonely heart full of Memories
Hold me like you did that day, One More Time

I wanted to thank you but I couldn’t while you were around
I’m sorry that we broke up.
At the end, I’d like to call out your name once more

You’re still smiling on my cell phone
You still look so caring to me, I can’t erase your pic even if I wanted to

We were like kids as we joked with each other
And I miss carrying you around on my back

Time has passed since then and someday I should forget this pain
But you taught me the meaning of love and I can’t let you go

(Repeat*)

“I’m lonely,” I can’t bring myself to say those words
The world has come to nothing

You know I love you, even now

If you had stayed with me, I would’ve made you happier than anyone
Fly Away to that day, to that place

Even now I want to see you, I’ve been thinking about you
Even now I still haven’t forgotten that Love Song
My lonely heart full of Memories
Hold me like you did that day, once more

I hear you call
I hear you say my name
Tonight, I’ll remember you

4)

为什么“爱”里面有个友字？是不是代表着爱情的开始是来着友情，或是结束时也该仍是朋友？...有意思~

Did anyone of us notice the word of love in Mandarin Chinese has the word of Friend?Is that actually meaning love begins with friendship and if the love ends, the both people should still remain being friends at least？ hmm..

愛

Wan Tian haha..if you notice the traditional word...actually is not 友,but more like 久....另外宝盖儿通常是用于受保护的意思，例如：家，宝等。所以根据繁体，爱是把那个人长长久久保护并保存在心里。
by the way, just my point of view ya..XD

I like the way she interpreted the chinese traditional word of 'love' i.e. love is embedding the person inside the heart forever...

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There's an interesting page which discuss why would couples broke up, parents divorced and so on. Well, most of the reasons that such occasion occur are because of lack of commitment, cannot reach the expectations of each other, lack of communication and etc. I opine that there's no one can be 100% compatible with in the world. There's none of us will be 100% perfect so it's ridiculous to expect the one you love to be the one that you wish her to be. Someone told me that relationship= love+feeling+communication+tolerance+honesty/trustworthy...Now I think that appreciation should be added into the equation.

有些東西，無需想起，但从沒忘記 ……mi manchii molto

Souvenirs given

2011-01-30T16:37:00.003+08:00

A random post to fill up my blog territory here:

MY COLLECTION OF SOUVENIRS GIVEN BY FAMILY MEMBERS & FRIENDS (YEAR 2011)

From Korea: a cute pencil case and keychain given by my close roommate =)

My youngest sister had followed my dad to Taiwan (annual company trip) this year. As I study at another state, I lost the chance to join the trip again! ish.. my another sister had followed to travel to China and had visited to China Exposition during the previous year.. Sigh~ When I can join the annual trip with my dad?! T.T

Taiwan souvenirs given by family and hui shan

According to my sis, this is given by a hotel staff.

cute slippers keychain , well, it's very costly!

Spongebob mobile phone accessories.. bought from theme park in Taiwan

handmade soap given by hui shan, thanks!

Bad day

2011-01-30T12:18:00.001+08:00

Last Thursday~

It was a terrible day that I had gone through where something bad had happened to me unexpectedly. It's my own mistake for carrying two luggages with a backpack on my back when go back to KL. I did not sleep well on the previous night as something had happened and indeed it ruined my mood. Huh...

It was around 5pm which was the rush hour in KL.The train was crowded when it arrived at the station of Bandar Tasik Selatan. I felt my right body being pushed into the train but I thought that it was normal since many people disembarked while the people standing behind me were just rushing into the train. I was managed to enter the train and standing near the door. After putting down my luggages on the floor whilst the door of ktm closed, I tucked my hand inside my right pocket of my jeans and found that the phone wasn't there. I quickly reach for it in my left pocket yet it wasn't there too. I began to feel frightened and quickly searched for my handset in luggages and backpack. It's gone! I asked the people who standing around me if they ever see anyone taking something out from my pocket. The feeling of losing handset was very terrible and I felt so hopeless! Huh..I realized that I had been pickpocketed when the people disembarked out from the train that moment. I had been asking people around to lend me handset to call my parents and sister yet I was very unlucky to have them not picking the phone. I had the Hobson's Choice to call him to contact my sister since I am using other's handphone for few moments. I felt so ashamed of myself for encounter accident again when I reached KL. I was even being advised by some passengers for being extra be careful when taking KTM.

Huh...luckily my mom was contacted finally and she reached to fetch me. I burst into crying when met her,knowing that it's the second time I met accident when came back from Johor. Naturally, I was being scolded by mom for not being careful and bringing two luggages on hand. Shall I felt relieved that I am still alive and my purse was not gone? I had to pay RM15 for the sim card to be replaced. When I recalled back, the lost handset was almost out of battery thus the credits were not being used. Yet, my heart is still bleeding ever since I lost the phone as many memorable messages had been kept inside the handset and now, they are forever gone. I also regretted that I didn't copy the phone numbers and therefore it became a great problem for me later on to try to contact the persons whose names were kept in the phone. Sighed...Am I looked very blur, easy to be cheated or pickpocketed?But I do know that it was my mistake too for not being careful in the crowded area. Sighed! Minutes before being pickpocketed, I even had used my handset to try contacting my home! Argh!!!

I really hate the society in KL. nowadays..The main factor for all the social skulduggery in KL. or any big cities is that the country has recruited too many foreigners especially Negroid. Look, I am not having discriminative attitude towards them but the recruitment of foreigners in malaysia is seemed to be out of control nowadays. Our country cannot track the lost mobile phone like some other countries out there.. Haiz.. can't our government or authorities enhance themselves and take draconian measures towards the social decadence?!

I miss my Nokia 6120...I couldn't buy it from marketplace anymore...=( I felt so regretted for not backup my phonebook and certain messages~ I felt awfully upset because parents took this accident openly and dad even got me a handset yesterday. It's a lesson to be learnt and I really have to be cautious when going anywhere from now onwards.

Nevertheless, I really appreciated the help given by the KL.central guy, the uncle and the malay auntie who had lent me to use their handsets to contact people for help...

I miss the days I used to have smooth paths to move on safely..

I miss the days I used to be cheerful and brave...

I miss the days I don't put up fake smiles..Huh...seriously, when the bad days will leave me?

Chinese New Year is Approaching

2011-01-25T20:02:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year is approaching and followed by the special day that I once looking forward to..Anyway, day-dreams may disappear somehow...

Well, I am having fever with Apple Products out of sudden... I have strong affinity towards Apple brand i-touch, iphone or ipad..Uh..yet I am out of finance..Apart from that, I wish to get myself a DLSR soon, thinking of capturing the nice snapshots around me.It's like finding back my interests.Sooner or later, I will be busier for SIFE tasks and seriously I do hope that my emotion problem might not ruin things by now onwards.Holding the post of multimedia manager brings the significance of responsibility, and I have to start brainstorming how to use flash softwares, making videos and presenting nice slides and so on.

I am still waiting for some miracles, hmm.. the answers~

Ps: Somehow I miss my true smiles, laughs...

Will there be someone that could understand me?

2011-01-23T13:44:00.004+08:00

It seems like I have no freedom to do the things I want, I desire to...Sometimes, in my life, I felt that the journey I walk through is getting harder and harder even I always keep the faith that everything will get better in time. My wound never get better, indeed it's pain~ My world has become so dark and empty with the hope being ruined..I am just feel like breaking down and hoping to leave to somewhere there will be having no sorrows, no troubles, no weeps, ....

I am tired of explaining things that I don't even know how to express it out now...You don't have to believe in me if you don't trust me. I am sick of everything that is happening to me, my family and my aunts...My family has no peace of facing a sicko neighbor who has(had) threatening the life of ours. My house may be burned by her one day and the whole family is living in worries. My beloved aunt is having severe sickness nowadays and I could only pray hard to have her being safe and recovered. How could I burden up my family when they have faced problems too? Shall I still begging for concerns from them or making them worried?! Can anyone knows how I feel right now? I am feeling lost, hurt, and I am really helpless! I wish I could run away from everything!

To whom that finds it fun to be fooling around, you don't know what it's like until you wear the shoes in mine! Don't throw any useless and stupid blames on me when you don't even know what is really happening! Give me some peace of mind...

It's said to be everyone has his or her own problem to face with, I don't hope to burden up my friends who have their own obstacles too..Somehow, I just hope that there will be someone I can rely on when I need help the most and now I just feel no one will be there for me..

And all my sorrows made their bed beside me

The shame, the disgrace, and the brutality,

Leave all the sorrows behind me,

Trying to overwhelm with calmness,

Being the true self of mine...

An interesting post that I read

2011-01-22T22:32:00.001+08:00

I read the following article from my friend and I found it meaningful..

ONCE a professor asked his students:
"Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?"
The students thought for a while before one of them said:
"We shout because we lose our calm."

"But why shout when the other person is just next to you? Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice?"

The students gave various answers, none of which satisfied the professor.

Finally he explained: "When two people are angry with each other, their hearts distance. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the louder they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance."

Then he asked: "What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly. Why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small."

"When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak - they only whisper and get closer to each other in their love. Finally they do not even need to whisper. They only look at each other, that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other."

So, when you argue, do not let your hearts get distant or say words that distance each other even more, or there may come a day when the distance is so great you will not find the path back to each other.

3-leaf clover

2011-01-08T12:19:00.001+08:00

Will it be possible for me to capture 3-leaf clover one day?emo-ing~

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The final decision of having Titas class at3-5pm on Fri. is really a bad news for those who need to go back home..Huh.. my orthodontic appointment might be delayed already..

Today, finally got rid of a problem that bothered me since January till now..Huh~

I am looking forward for explanations from a person... I hope I will not wait for too long..

It seems like I am being fooled again..ISH! Argh~

Floating in memories

2011-01-03T20:10:00.003+08:00

I don't remember the days, but remember the moments we have had..

I am looking forward for the days I will start to be busy and stop floating in the memories..(O_o)

Hoping that the parachute could bring the sorrows away~

放下．放空．放平．放心．放手

2011-01-01T08:49:00.002+08:00

放下．放空．放平．放心．放手

刘墉

新来的小沙弥，对什么都好奇。秋天，禅院里红叶飞舞，小沙弥跑去问师父：「红叶这么美，为什么会掉呢？」师父一笑：「因为冬天来了，树撑不住那么多叶子，只好舍。这不是『放弃』，是『放下』！」

冬天来了，小沙弥看见师兄们把院子里的水缸扣过来，又跑去问师父：「好好的水，为什么要倒掉呢？」师父笑笑：「因为冬天冷，水结冻膨胀，会把缸撑破，所以要倒干净。这不是『真空』，是『放空』！」大雪纷飞，厚厚的，一层又一层，积在几棵盆栽的龙柏上，师父吩咐徒弟合力把盆搬倒，让树躺下来。小和尚又不解了，急着问：「龙柏好好的，为什么弄倒？」
师父脸一整：「谁说好好的？你没见雪把柏叶都压塌了吗？再压就断了。那不是『放倒』，是『放平』，为了保护它，教它躺平休息休息，等雪霁再扶起来。」

天寒，加上全球金融危机，香油收入少多了，连小沙弥都紧张，跑去问师父怎么办？
「少你吃？少你穿了吗？」师父瞪一眼：「数数！柜里还挂了多少衣服？柴房里还堆了多少柴？仓房里还积了多少土豆？别想没有的，想想还有的；苦日子总会过去，春天总会来。你要放心。『放心』不是『不用心』，是把心安顿。」

如果不曾拿起，怎么放下？

如果不曾拥有，怎么放空？

如果不曾独立，怎么放平？

如果不曾挂念，怎么放心？

如果不曾抓紧，怎么放手？

人生就有很多欲望和追求，就如树不停长出的叶子，不能也不可能留住所有的叶子，这时就要学会放下。叶子再美，树也承受不住。在人生的路途中放下过重的行李，这并不意味着放弃，为了走得更远，必须做到轻装简行。放空即虚怀若谷，不会在于他人的赞扬中自我膨胀。在遇到强大的压力和挫折时，要学会放平，休养生息。在困境中，不急燥，学会把心安顿。

2011年的新一天、第一天，期待着自己能比较沉静，能学会放下．放空．放平．放心．放手。

Memory span

2010-12-29T12:35:00.005+08:00

Recently, I had been doing some readings and I found an interesting article about memory span of the goldfish today. There's a myth saying that the memory span of a goldfish is around 3 seconds, but the actual research in the contemporary has shown that goldfish does have memory span of at least 3 months and could differentiate colors, shapes and the surrounding of it. Hmm.. somehow I wish to become a goldfish, because having the bitter memories etched in mind is terrible. Bitter memories are much easier to be remembered compared to sweet ones. 3 months of bittersweet memories are enough to be tamed, and there's 'restart' button for goldfish to have another memory again..As human being, I could only remind myself to think about the sweet memories and not to live in the shadows of bad memories.

Anyway, the list of resolution for year 2011 is fulled of my new targets. One of the targets is boast up my pointers and remain in dean list! Okay, perhaps, not only be in dean list, I aim for first class.=) For my studies, I do hope I have more than 3 months memory span =)

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Going to watch a funny movie introduced by aunt i.e. 7th Grade Civil Servant, hmm.. next would be The Proposal I guessed~

untitled

2010-12-27T14:48:00.004+08:00

The year is ending soon and I only have few more days to spend with my family. Somehow, I felt sad as going to leave the home again. I know that I will miss my parents whom have shower me with concerns. Anyway, there are some random photos that I should have uploaded..

it was the birthday cake~ although it was not a happy-ending birthday, but i am still loving it.

- I am looking for university to reopen..

I hope for a bright year ahead...-

丁当我爱上的

2010-12-26T14:23:00.000+08:00

丁当我爱上的

眼泪只准在眼眶打转，就象海浪，抱着海岸
拥抱不等于拥有天堂
最后，再爱我一个晚上
地久天长，天大的谎
爱到了最后碎成了碎钻，碎成了星光
我爱上的是他笑起来的迷幻
我爱上的是他比我还逞强
我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳
我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡
最后我只剩下了一半
身体一半，灵魂一半
永远找不到另外一半
以后难免会想起他吧
如果偶然，只是偶然
为什么遗忘那么难
我爱上的是他笑起来的迷幻
我爱上的是他比我还逞强
我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳
我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡
我爱上的是他笑起来的迷幻
我爱上的是他比我还逞强
我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳
我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡
我爱上的是他戒不掉的流浪
我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡
眼泪只准在眼眶打转，就象海浪，抱着海岸
拥抱不等于拥有天堂

My 21st birthday

2010-12-19T21:51:00.005+08:00

Everyone is wishing or sending birthday greetings to wish the birthday girl to have a wonderful 21st birthday. Yet,I wasn't celebrated it happily and almost spent the final 5 hours mourning/crying in sadness.

What does 21st birthday so special about? Yea, I can't deny that I did expect for a joyful celebration with the loved ones. But frankly speaking, it's just meant that parents had gave birth to me and I had grown up to 21 years old now! I did not put high expectation for this year's birthday, just hoping to have a nice hanging out with family. But everything was ruined after a dinner. I hoped that my sis could learn how to respect the elders' opinions rather than just follow what she desired for. Everything was ruined just because of the so called important 'face' of yours. Isn't a nice dinner to be having with family members more important? It's a bad day for me! The birthday cake was laid on the table silently awaiting for the birthday girl to make a wish. If I could make a wish now, I hope that my mom is not angry anymore, so as the siblings.

Anyway, dad, I am so sorry to make u in dilemma. I knew you suggested the venue with good intention, but who knows... Huh!Mom, i am sorry too=(

21st birthday, the worst birthday I ever had, I hate today because I wasn't happy!

有谁能体谅我的雨天？

Happiness

2010-12-15T01:51:00.003+08:00

The recent shocking news of a guy who committed suicide for his beloved ex gf had shown that the recklessness of parents who lack of concern of their children and the youngsters have cavalier attitude towards their own precious life. Is that really worthwhile to spend your time, life and tears for someone who doesn't love you anymore? "Romeo takes me to somewhere we can be along" is a girl's wishes, hoping that her Mr. Right could bring the felicity and happiness to her. Well, there are many inevitable thing happening in the love story.I hate to say that there are many Korean male/ female celebrities committed suicide because of love too. Committing suicide is just an avenue to avoid the responsibility and sorrows or anger. Leaving your beloved ones with a letter before committing suicide and after all, if you ever know they will be heartbroken to see your corpse with the letter in hand?!

Parents and family are still the only one who will not hurt you much and love you=) there are some exceptions to certain families yet the quote " blood is thicker than water" applies in general. Please do love your own self before loving others.

Life, fulled of bittersweet memories.

Just like my blog's title, it's a bittersweet symphony of life.

Being happy is something I am learning.

The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being.

Let's smile even it's a bad day=)

At least you are still alive to undergo the sorrows.

Hopeless

2010-12-13T11:23:00.006+08:00

I found an interesting post from my friend, Shelyn...She wrote this:

When you look once,

Everything seems nice.

But when you look twice,

You can see all lies.

-Quoted-

In life, we have many ambitious desires which are achievable, but we lack stamina to keep pursuing. My dream never seem to be perfect and come true. Do miracles happen? It's inevitable for unexpected things to happen.

The one you trusted with can be the one who hurts you the most. The one who is the closest with you might be the one who lies to you. The one who gave hope to you is possibly to be the person who scuppers all your hopes! The one whom you care the most may gives you lies as present of the day! Gosh! I am damn pissed off today. Yea, I am having a terrible mood after seeing the message at 11am. What a great surprise of the day!!!Ish! Don't ever make a promise when you are unable to fulfill it! You are just a mood ruiner~ To whom who know me best, you should know that I HATE people who break promises ?!

Just like the quote above, when I see it once, the promise seems to be so nice, when I look at it for the second time, it turns to be a lie and will never happen! Gosh! My favorite month becomes the month I detest~Dec 2010 seem to be so unfaithful and I dislike it!

Huh!!! Anyway, today is my buddy,von's birthday! My dear von von, happy birthday to you! May you and martin be the sweet couples forever!=)

A funny photo which is taken from li chen to be shared with:

Well, my goal during the holidays- keeping fit! I hope I can have the persistence and perseverance to achieve my goal.

~ The end~

ps: Dear Lord, I wish my days could be happier!

Essentials for the month

2010-12-12T21:34:00.005+08:00

Happy dates

Here's some fusion of bits of my life to share...

On 9th Dec 2010, I had been hanging out with von, val and von's bf; martin. We went to Fullhouse which I wished to go long time ago. Hmm.. the foods there are not very delicious, yet I quite like the decoration there.Thanks to Martin who fetch us to Fullhouse and Sunway Pyramid~

Let's view some camwhores of us..^^

Today, I had went to The Curve and Ikano with my family. After leaving KL to study in Johor, I got less chances to hang out with family already. Today= Shopping day! I finally bought the books entitled of, ' My sister's keeper' and 'waiting for a person's coffee'. Dad and mom bought me a pair of eyes mask!it's so cute~

Postcards

2010-12-09T21:01:00.004+08:00

Today, I would like to address my appreciation to my friends who had bought me some souvenirs when they travelling oversea.

from li chen, my cute ex tuition mate + friend; Nottingham

- the postcard was bought during her travel at Oxford-

from Wesley, my course representative who had brought back the maple leaf from Korea, isn't it cool?!

An unexpected postcard was given by senior Nicky Kah Hoe who traveled at Jeju Island; Korea-

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the upper photo is a shirt's words and it spoke my heart out..haha=)

December Month 2010

2010-12-03T14:29:00.006+08:00

Yeah! December is approaching!I love this month very much!

1st, it's my birthday month! ❤❤❤

2nd, there's my another 2 close friends' birthday month too..i.e. ee von and chin ting's! that's great~

3rd, I love christmas, I am looking forward for the gift from my neighbour..haha! this time, I hope tht i will not get earrings again. XD

On 30th November 2010, it signified our 3rd semester had ended after conquering the last 2 papers. My sistaz had been planned to go to visit Tropical Village, Ayer Hitam to release our stress accumulated from the assignments and exams on the following day.

There were only some photos being captured as we can't bear standing under the hot burned sun for too long. We spent 2 hours at there. Personally thinking that the entrance ticket fee which is RM10 is quite costly and the maintenance of the mini world is much to be desired!

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After visiting the tropical village, we headed to Kluang Mall for taming our hunger. We ended up having lunch at Secret Recipe and the chicken cordon bleu was super delicious! It was too bad that my favourite mango delight cake was unavailable on that day. Huh! We found out that secret recipe's chocolate walnut chip cake was very nice too.

The top right= the 21st birthday cake..=)

After the lunch, we went to shopping~Hehe.. my attention was caught by big head doll. There were 4 designs with the difference of their shirts and eyes. The plush dolls were just too cute!

We were much like the prisoners coming out from jails for not seeing the world for a long time. Hahaha! We girls shopped alot for clothes, hair accessories and so on. We came out with a suggestion to the future husbands i.e. it's advisable for letting your wife to shop once every week rather than once a month; otherwise your wife will be shopping triple than you expected. LOL

The most unforgettable moment was hui en they all had bought me a mint vanilla ice-cream cake fro Family Bakery House to have an earlier celebration of my 21st birthday! The mint ice-cream melt inside my mouth while the love that's given by them melt my heart! I was much more surprised when I found the round head doll on my bed when I slept. It was the gift from them! I love it very much! The head is very similar to mushroom's head. Haha..

Exams 2010

2010-12-01T13:52:00.001+08:00

The 7 exam papers had been conquered within 5 days, or in other words, the exam papers for my course were finished within a week! OMG! It's really terrible when your brain's capacity is low to accommodate so many stuffs inside. The guilt inside myself is indescribable as i did not do well in my exam papers in final examinations. Huh..Quality Management, Business Law, Japanese, MOT, Management Information System,Technical Writing and Manufacturing Technology~ None of the papers that I am satisfied with the performance of my exams. Ahhhh.. Hopefully, I still can manage to maintain my dean list position.

I personally very dislike the irresponsibility of the manufacturing technology lecturer as he did not teach well and most of us did not know what had we learnt during this sem. A lecturer who only knew how to give tutorial questions after doing his one-man show of presenting the presentation slides! Ish.. I wondered how he got his Dr. title!!!

Anyway, i am the main enemy of myself for not doing well in exams~Nah, I still could on facebook during the hectic exam week..Facebook is much more interesting than reading the stack of closed-text passages..=*

exam preparation with a MILO cup in which its content is coffee instead of milo and some snacks~

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Haiz..it's useless to cry over the spilled milk, i could only to pay back my sleeping debts during the exam weeks now..

Exam Week

2010-11-24T09:04:00.000+08:00

Food delights

Mom's homecook糯米饭

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Some captures of the foods during the exam study weeks~

chicken porridge from a malay stall at Parit Raja.

The taste is similar to chinese cooking!

2010-11-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

友情风车

2010-11-02T10:52:00.002+08:00

友情风车

Somehow, glancing back the photos that we captured last time making the memories embedded in mind become clearer. The moments we spent eating dinner at mamak stalls outside the Perwira Hostel, orchestrating moral projects together, had meals at Mui Lim before each going back hometown, enjoyed watching movie together, celebrated each's birthday and cracking brains to design birthday cards + surprises, planned for trips,etcetera. Yet, such moments could only be embedded in mind as we were like keeping each at arm's length nowadays. How sad?!

4th of November is approaching, in which it's going to be our dear sis i.e. chia pei and mf's birthday. We had celebrated for Chia Pei and we were glad that she was very happy with the pressie we gave=). Hui En had asked if we tried to organize a birthday celebration inviting m.f they all to celebrate together, will the friendships between us have a U-Turn. Hmm..yet, such opinion had been kept in minds and we did not make the approaches out. I could feel that Chia Pei missed the time she played volleyball with mf and siew chen while Hui en missed the time that ws helped her when passed by the hostel's guard house due to her dyed hair, the day we ate at mamak trying to reconcile back after quarreling over the rental house problem and so forth. Undoubtedly, we still miss the feeling of having them as our friends.

I have no idea with the causes for the friendships turn into a fiasco. Is that really because of the sharing of book's costs? My late apology wasn't helped anything~ Huh!

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The finalized final exam's schedule was terrible! I don't really like finishing up the exams within 7 days as I know I couldn't finish up my revision. Huh...I am worrying of the studies as I know that my studies was kind of mess as I was rushing the endless loads of assignments most of the time during this semester.

I don't wish to be a dead meat after the final, so...

I could only ask myself to

GANBATTE KUDASAI!

Small treats for my body and mind

2010-10-23T14:12:00.004+08:00

Read about this article on Thursday and I felt the content is quite true. I had been maltreat my body and soul for not having sleep more than 4 hours for few days. I do hate MOT assignment, yet seeing the refined one, I did feel happy for my perseverance. Anyway, I bought a pair of sandals at BP Mall, some elianto masks and nail colors since elianto has offers nw, as small treats for myself. I love the sandals very much, yet it's quite costly and for da jie, it looks like for malays~>.< well="">

There's going to have 1 assignment, 3 more presentation to rush.. Huh.. I dislike them...Today, supposedly I shall rush for the assignment, but I decided to give myself a long break since fri( shopping). Hehe.. I had started to watch HK drama 巾幗梟雄之義海豪情. There's a scene that the secretary's wife was being raped by his boss. Furthermore, the wife was pregnant and she died after failing to be mentally abused by the boss who kept threatening her. Gosh! Somehow, why do man love sex so much?! Ish..terribly hate such kind of human! immoral~

19102010

2010-10-19T02:15:00.004+08:00

I had been struggling to post up this post in this blog rather than the one which belongs to me and him, well,it's kinda be neglected.Huh..Perhaps all of us are busy~

It's going to be having the 100 days that we have walked through, and yesterday i.e. 19/10/2010 was his birthday. We had an earlier celebration on 18th Oct 2010 which was the 90th days we had been together with. I guessed this unromantic guy never remember any dates. Huh! Disappointed~ Well, hopefully he will be at least remembering the anniversary date~ It was a simple celebration where we ate dinner together at KFC and ate 3 cakes out of 6. It had a deep meaning for the no. of slices of cakes I bought from JB.( by Hui En actually); and I was surprised that he knew the meaning and how the idea came out with. I am looking forward to see the photos, too bad that we did not take photos together that day! Huh..what a waste as it's hard to ask a person who dislike to take photos to be captured with u~ Anyway, I hope that he likes the gifts I gave and the cards as well. All had been made for couples of periods.

19/10/2010- His birthday- he celebrated with his test at night; with the short of electricity supply at most of the housing areas here from 8.30pm to 10.15pm. Hui en and I had been cooked spaghetti although without electricity XD. Nice moment~ Oh yea, thanks to Jia Sin and Hai Ling who send candles to us=)

20/10/2010- A memorable day although I was busy as usual, indulging with caffeine to rush the assignments. The short chat with Li Chen who was currently in Nottingham had made me acquiring a better mood. The chat was actually started with a funny way in which she requested for a sentence which I loved to use in essay-writing. Haha.. I was amazed by the friendships between us as we were from different secondary schools, high schools but just knew each other through a 3hrs tuition classes and hereby the friendship blossoms =) We could talk non stop in the tuition class and kept laughing on some silly matters. I am appreciating this cheerful friend, miss her =)

Last but not least, A shoutout from my heart- I wanna decaffeinate my drinks, I wanna rest with my computer off for days, I wanna get rid from the tons of assignments and correction over and over..., Huh... and I know this couldn't be happened as I have to study for japanese test on Mon. and complete my 3 presentation slides and 1 more assignment. AHHH..HELP!!!

I plan to reward my hectic life by buying a new pair of sandals which I loved and dreamed of ~ So, shopping on Fri =)

Penned by

a busy lady! lol

Luxurious life

2010-10-15T00:56:00.004+08:00

Sushi King RM 2 Bonanza ♥

1 week before this, I had been crazily looking forward to go to Sushi King RM2 Bonanza ( a promotion to reward the loyal customers who own the membership card). Today, after the manufacturing test 2, I had been gone to BP Mall to eat sushi with my sistas (kiwi wasn't going with as she's going back Johor to celebrate her honey's birthday). Thanks to Sue Fern's sushi king's card! woohoo..the luxurious dinner I had spend costing~ RM20.60~Too little? NOOOO!!! Hui en and I actually had shared together for 18 plates sushi! Haha..

Honestly, I prefer another japanese restaurant's sushi compared to sushi king. The 1st plate of salmon sushi was just a disappointment..Not fresh!Anyway, the sushi king's RM2 Bonanza is kind of worthy as I had satisfy my stomach with salmon sushi, ebi, surimi scallop, fry roll, tuna, golden ball, unagi,ebi fry... I am regretted for not eating one more plate of ebi fry! and I had not eaten the inari yet~ahh, don't have baby octopus's sushis..,abit disappointed!

I guess I may dream of sushi and teppanyaki tonight again!

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Well, as subscribed to the title of the post ' luxurious life', eating sushi isn't considered as luxury lifestyle isn't it? Girls love shopping, the naked truth of the world. We went for window shopping over the clothes shop again! This time we did not spend on clothes but on facial accessories, make up stuffs and etc.

left hand

right hand=)

Haha.. yeap, that's my hands and the nails are coloured differently. Well, I did not purchase on these and it was the salesgirl helped to paint my nails while promoting elianto's products. Huh.. I had spent alot on elianto for the ever 1st time today as I purchased on the organic olive shampoo (RM35), the facial cleanser made of lemon( RM18) and BB cream (RM49) with the additional RM5 for an ellianto's pink bag (actual cost is RM29). The first time I purchased so much! Adding up the purchases on daily products i.e. yogurts and garnier aqua defense (recommended by dajie) and the nails color remover, I had purchased around hundred plus fifty today..Gosh! I am not a rich person yet spending like pouring water today. Hmm...

Well, my sistaz are quite shopping spenders too.. Hmm.. they had bought perfumes which costed them RM70 each. Can't deny that I love the container of perfume very much and the 真女人 and anna sui's smell! It's just super sweet like indulging in pool of honey to see chia pei's choosing her bf's perfume as his present.

Haha, it's sweeter when think of kiwi who has cooked delicious food for her bf as well. Too bad the food is going to be cold when she reached jb.Hope that they will have felicity! I am looking forward for monday.. Haha, another luxurious day? Anyway, It's time to keep fit, so yogurt and fruits are my part and parcel of life now=）

In short, the luxurious life gave me short period of happiness , yet causing my wallet suffers for some days.. Lol.. It's bleeding, I know~

20101010

2010-10-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

20101010

I must be crazy as still blogging although have the loads of incomplete assignments and tests revision. Well, today is a special date with triple 10~ Haha, my day was begun with the delicious breakfasts bought by my dad- my favourite popiah + tauhu hua from morning market. Then, I received a shocking news from my two old friends who announced their relationship via fb. WOW.. unbelievable as they were from different secondary schools although had been gone to same class, same primary school before. A nice date to dating right?Haha...imagination~

10 things/ person I would like to address my appreciation:

Buddha- for giving me life =>
Mom and dad- for the heredity they make me the person I am today, their time, guidance, money and love they spent/spend on me.
The Earth- providing me the essences to stay alive =)
Happy Tree Friends (YY, CT)- the sweet memories we have
Friends (Jessi, Kenny, Tee Zheng, Calvin Tee, HH, Val, Vonz, Shan and others...) - for lending me their hands when I need help
My housemates, especially Hui En who lends me the shoulders to cry on when in need!
Joel- for the existing challenges that I am trying to face everyday..train my patience,tolerance and efforts of understanding a person
Blog- Without the territory to fill my sorrows and happinesses, I might have none elsewhere to put down my daily mask~
Books- that make me being knowledgeable to certain senses...filling up my free time!
Art- My life is full of colour! fun!

Thank God It's Today

2010-10-09T11:43:00.003+08:00

T.G.I.T = Thank God It's Today

Take time to smell the roses.
Take a nap on Sunday afternoon.
Trust in God but lock your car.
Never deprive anyone of hope. It may be all they have.

If you see someone without a smile, give them one of yours.
Eat inspiring food. Be thankful for every meal.
Don’t take good health for granted.
Wear outrageous underwear under the most formal business attire.
Enjoy your job and you’ll never work another day in your life.

Turn to the person next to you and say, “You’re GREAT!”
Make it a habit to do nice things… for people who will never find out.
T.G.I.T. Thank God It’s Today!
Judge your success by the degree to which you are enjoying peace, health and love.

When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
Be generous. Be honest. Be romantic.
Live so that when your children think of fairness, caring and integrity, they think of you.
Be gentle with the earth. Be gentle with others. Be gentle with yourself.

Never interrupt when someone is complimenting you.
Just take a deep breath and say, “Thanks – please tell me more.”
Don’t be an a-dull-t. Allow your child to come out to play
Take your dog to obedience school. You’ll both learn a lot
Don’t nag. Don’t gossip. Don’t tailgate.
Say thank you a lot. Say please a lot.
Think of the most difficult people you know … and learn to love them.

Don’t postpone joy. There’s no time like the present to be JOYOUS.
OK, EVERYONE, SCREAM WITH JOY!
Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every part of your life.
Never give up on anyone. Miracles happen everyday.

Remember the two things that people cannot take away from you: Your dignity. Your birthdate.
Laugh your head off.
Seriously, let’s laugh our heads off! Okay, let’s put our heads back on again.
Do more than is expected and do it cheerfully.

Live life with passion and give others the permission to do the same.
Wake up every morning and say, “I am so happy to be alive!”(even on Mondays)
Learn to put love into everything you do. Take care of your soul.
Breathe – deeply and often.

Life is short .. play hard. pray hard.
Remember that on one can make you feel bad without your permission.
Attitudes are contagious… is yours worth catching?
Embrace all your feelings. And choose what to do with them.
Be a friend to Money… not a slave.

You will at times forget these suggestions. You can remember anytime you wish.
Remember to Remember. Notice and adjust. Enjoy the journey. The Choice is yours.

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Embrace the feeling of yourself, but to not act under others' control.

Live yourself, but not under others' shadow~

thanks to a surprising gift given by my sis, en^^

without my friends of BP, my university life would be dull and boring..

without my supportive jie mei, my sorrows could only be kept inside my heart~

arigatou gozaimasu~

September 2010

2010-10-02T12:14:00.019+08:00

Wake me up before September ends~~

i wanna pray for a better life for Oct, Nov, Dec and so on...

Yup..September 2010 is finally ended, and I personally detest this month very much although some memorable and happy moments were embedded in my mind...

25th of Sept 2010 was the day that I had looked forward before something turned worse unexpectedly. Well, my house-mates, roomies, and I were overwhelmed with sudden happiness the few days before the particular day in which we went for shopping for our prom night dress. Kiwi and Hui En had been spending alot for the prom night dress...>.<...My pitiful wallet was bleeding after I spent RM70++ for a white dress. It might be the 1st white dress that I favor it so much since I prefer dark color clothes. I guess that it will be only girls who will be so busy preparing for prom night, as need to buy make up stuffs, contact lens, dress, high heels and etcetera.

On the faithful day, the prom night had been held at Landmark Hotel, Batu Pahat and we were having havocs before attending it. Chia Pei had been helping most of us to make up while my hair was set by Kiwi. Appreciation is addressed to both of them for being so helpful and generous in providing the expensive make up products for us to use.. Oh yea, must thank hui en too..for her costly make up products~~Finally, we managed to start our journey to the hotel at 6.15pm in which we should have reached around 6.30pm. Well, we weren't the late comers..XD

My number~~I wished to get 19 or 129(in which i saw the girl who got that number in washroom..XD) and the booklet..

me and da jie

me and my make-up designer..leng lui no.1

with zhen2,hui en, kiwi, si cantik shi hui, and Jennifer

captured by da jie when I pick up phone for chia pei..

let's have some look on the delicious foods.. yet most of the girls only eat the 1st serve..

I love sushi!!!!! have them in my dreams~~

Smile=)

2BPB's leng lui and leng zai..=)

yeah.. take 2

with ewen from BPC.. nice friend!!!

haha..with william, kwang chen as intruders..=)

let the memories stay~

me and him

There are lots more photos apart from the above ones. The prom night had given me lots of the '1st time', i gotta thank soon le here..his help on the prom night had shocked me yet indeed a nice friend's act of him really appreciated.=)

The 1st dance, ever and ever.. maybe it might be the final dance..~

How I entered the dancing pool will be embedded in my mind forever~

The 1st time danced with my fellow friends and crazy seniors nicky and his gang on the stage.. haha.. Not as 'high' as them..

The very 1st time we girls ate without caring how's the manner or expression we ate.. LOL..( Thanks Maxloon, Kwang Siong (knew on that day) and Ben for keep serving us with foods as we still need to care abit our image..haha..) I missed the tuna spring roll, sushi and the chicken..It's just a waste when see many foods left after the prom night. Perhaps AJKs should concern about this issue~

Lastly, congrats Maxloon for being nominated as Best Costume Award, Ben and Chia Pei as the candidates for Prom King and Prom Queen..

Well, the class had said to be joining prom night again during next year as it will be the last memoir of our uni.. Shall I look forward for it? Haha.. shall see then since Audrey they all will be going next year.. BPA's shirley that gang too.. OUCH.. so, pray that it wont be fall on 25th of Sept next year.. I hate 25092010 for some reasons, the things I expected and hoped for did not appear and even worse than expected~

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Yea, the photo above that captured on 29th of Sept. spoke thousand words. My coursemates and I had been awarded under dean list with the pointers of 3.5 and above. I hope that my perseverance will be paid off this sem although I did not do well in some tests or quizes. Hmm.. may my dreams come true..

Ps: I hate wearing baju kurung.. I just don't dress nicely with that~~

My aims for this sem>> 3.7.. can I achieve? Haha.. time will tell~

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The spoken words were like knife stabbing through butter..Will the dreams of mine come true?I hope my cup of espresso is always with nice smell although it might have bittersweet taste~~

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2nd of October, signifying the 2nd day of October 2010, well, without the sufficient sleep and focused mind, my Japanese Test is kind of a failure.. I did not do well and hopefully still can manage to obtain at least 80/100. T_T...

When the going gets tough,

only the tough gets going

100th post

2010-09-14T14:49:00.013+08:00

Yeah, it's finally 100th post of my territory~It might have been months ago if I was more hardworking and persistent in writing blog, well, My Palace,My symphony of life and the rhythm in My heart is celebrating a festival named Happy 100th Post..LOL.. (being lame)

It's really spending a quite long period to write 100 blog posts. Well, I spent 840 days to write for my territory to make it as meaningful as it can be. It has been a part and parcel of my life.People often ask me how I come up with things to blog about, well, it's all about my life, myself...Nah, technology-literacy empowers the networking, yet I don't blog for the social networking, but to note down the milestones, memories, life of mine~What takes me continue blogging? Hehe..the passion, spirit and commitment are the keys to reach the 100 post milestones. Well, I will keep blogging and I love my website!

So, enough self-aggrandizing, onto the 100th post:

There's something I would like to decreed for my territory..An idea that I viewed from wordles.com and that's really something below..hmm..100 words that describe about me XD

Click it for a bigger view..=)

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Some random photos of the author of the blog...

i >3 this photo..!

as being a youth, why not acting cute sometimes?! haha..

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dad and sis were back from their trip finally..

glad to have them back at home =)

my house has 4 more panda bear soft toys nw..haha..representing 4 of us again XD

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2 cute birds are cuddling with each other..you could see how lovely are them!

nah, it's not easy to capture this..

I had been watching the two cute yellowish birds chipping or caroling on the tree outside my house for some moments,and took this picture after few trials XD

Before Mooncake Festival

2010-09-10T21:30:00.015+08:00

It was great to have holidays after some tragic moments that I experienced..Haha..it sounded bad?lol..Anyway, I am getting back into shape. Gotta thank my friends especially my course mates who had encouraged and supported me.. Ok, I shall note the self-promise here..I GOTTA STUDY BUSINESS LAW,MOT AND JAPANESE..oh no, i m gonna in deep trouble since I wasted quite some time. Hmm..lacked of good mood and because of sickness and insomia..huh.. my study plan has dragged some time..

In short, MIA in the past few days..

Well, I wanna blog about this...Mom, Thank you! I am getting admired of her hands, her determination for baking life and her baking skill!She baked moon cakes again this year, and I ♥ mooncakes!!!

Here are some photos......

involved in making 公仔饼( 猪笼饼) - Moon Biscuit

"Ready? Faster come and help...", said mom.

mom continued making after I failed to make another 3 after showing me the procedures

piggies are cuter and easier to make..^^

haha..they are readied to be eaten! ROAR~~

hehe..nice?

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Tomorrow, mom will be baking traditional moon cakes again..

I am preparing my stomach for them^^

Okay, I shall not forget this...I ♥

it..

100% lemon flavor with pandan skin..( mom's creative idea of mixing them..haha..)

well, i love sour-sweet food..so this suits my taste=)

and of course, I love the salty egg yolk..

Lousy si en, don dare to take a try

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Since it's finally 99th post, haha.. i'm gonna reward sth to my blog..lol..joking..

a photo to share.. I just succeeded to make the second one (instead of round beads..)

duration of process: more than 3 hours.. =(

That's it..=)

hmm..yesterday, it's no longer looks like this after my itchy hands did sth towards it..

it's in need of siew chen's thread/string to make it back in fixer shape..=)

Tears

2010-09-06T13:34:00.003+08:00

Tears are words the heart can't express,

Tears fall,

They can be easily wiped off with the sleeves,

but how do I erase the stain from my heart?

How to mend the shattered heart which often be teared?

Anti-racism

2010-09-05T20:14:00.013+08:00

Over the past few weeks, the racism issue has become the talk of the town with the servants of the government under the education system have committed certain acts which disrupted the racial sentiments in the country. Reading about the disgraced issues of headmistress who named as Siti Inshah, I am kinda shocked with the spoken words from this woman's mouth : Chinese students are not needed in the school and can go back to China or Sekolah Foon Yew (a private Chinese school in Johor), and that the prayer strings Indian students wear on their neck and wrist make them look like dogs, and only dogs would be tied this way.

It's such a disrespect towards other races whereby it's no truth stated that her ethnic group is the origin in this country. Furthermore, without other races as collaboration in business and many other fields, I guess it wont be having Malaysia celebrating its 53rd Independence Day! Without the efforts and consolidations in building up our country's economics, can the country make a breakthrough towards development?! There's arising issues of racists of headmaster in Kedah who called his students to go back to China. Well, the racist remarks by the educators in this multi-racial country had shown a contrast towards our PM's 1 Malaysia's initiative.I was impressed with the Namawee's video which entiled "Nah" which contained the main objective of condemning and speaking up for the rest of us towards discrimination although the obscene or foul words were being used . I hope the draconian measures will be taken towards the educators who had involved in uttering the racist remarks.Hopefully, there's no cover-up cases again!Regardless of the skin colour of the culprit, he or she should be dealt with the law accordingly.

Apart from the racists remarks uttered by the educators, there's another embarrassing issue which had happened in parliament. I wonder if the black sheeps could stop mis-allocating the power of political agenda or motives and etc. in devastating the country's harmony and peace! 1 Malaysia concept shall not be exhortation or slogan, but being practiced towards the development of country!

A Chinese woman who wanted to lodge a report being asked by the inspector

to go back to China as failed to speak in Malay

The happenings in Parliament.. =.=|| Can someone define the roles of politicians to me?! hmm..

I ♥ Malaysia, but does Malaysia ♥ me?? I can't feel the love..

Appreciate life

2010-08-31T10:39:00.004+08:00

It's surprising to hear that my friend's friend had jumped down from a building to commit suicide, and he's dead. Well, what comes to our thought when heard such news was: " What had happened to him?", "Why he chose such approach?" "Is the news real?"...Huh..although he is not my friend, but I do feel pity for him who has chosen such approach to end his life because of owing others money.. Huh, human beings, please do appreciate life although sometimes, the sorrows are hard to be beared. Be tough!

29th Aug., terrible night...
The rain falls because the sky can no longer handle its heavyness..Just like tears. It falls because the heart can no longer handle the pain...terrible night in which no concern was given while I was suffered of fever..
Noted=(

Life as having many unanticipated events where full of bittersweet moments. Indeed, there are moments in life that we need to get out from our comfort zone.Everything has its limits and it burst out when its totally heavy to carry on. But what's the essence of this quote is that we learn to let go of the pain.

Terribly Sick

2010-08-25T21:41:00.005+08:00

It's a terrible week in which I was terribly in need for better quality of medicines!!!
Argh...went to pharmacy for few times and PKU (for twice), yet the sickness wasn't cured and yet it seemed like deteriorating , Haiz.... from sore-throat, fever till coughing and now>>caught flu~~gosh, I must be recovered before next week otherwise I will face difficulties to face the war of exams...

In need of healthy body,
In need of litres of clean water,
In need of concerns,
In need of antibiotic in which PKU never supplies me...
In need of rest
In need of better immune system...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..HELP!!!

o(︶︿︶)oo(︶︿︶)oo(︶︿︶)o

2010-08-20T15:29:00.005+08:00

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Homesick!!I am counting down the dates to go back K.L. I 'm missing home baked mooncakes very much..Hmm..can't wait to watch the korean dramas that will be brought back by en..

Currently, I was very busy with the assignments and focus back on my neglected studies. Hmm..it would be a tough nut to crack to follow back as lacking of learning materials. Hmm..perhaps my gang were over-relaxed last week as we hanged out to BP Mall and carrefour..

Kinda sad of the friendship that goes sour and bitter after arising problems since last sem and this sem. Hmm.. I guessed it might be better to wear a mask rather than speaking too straightforward next time. Anyway, after a cozy chat among us, we set up a plan where each of us analyze each shortcomings and help each other to improve oneself. I'm a realist and not afraid of admitting my mistakes yet I might need people to point it out. Girls, let's improve ourselves...

Dedicated to si en, a friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words...A word of "sorry" might be hard to be said out, yet it's worth to be said to her whom you treated as your best friend. take care...=) see you in September..chill

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23/8---japanese quiz...
24-26/8--- MIS test
2/9---manufacturing and QM test...
3/9---Business law test...

seriously, I should engross in studies d..looking forward 25/9..ganbatte kudasai,carene!!! uh..

Departures

2010-08-07T00:09:00.003+08:00

Departures おくりびと which was the winner of 2009 academy award for the Best Foreign Movie. Its synopsis caught my attention and its theme song which named " Departures" instrumental song made me eager to watch it. The busy has no time for tears, yet this movie's synopsis reminded me about spending some time for the one we love.

Will I be missed if I leave the world one day?
Will anyone shed tears for me if I leave?

Will I have chance to thank them for their existence in my life?
Had I leave some memories etching in their minds before I leave?

❤ Appreciate the ones you love and shower them with love and care ❤

突然

2010-08-06T23:32:00.004+08:00

突然

心中有莫名的哀伤

慢慢地，泪水就滑落脸颊。。。

突然

很想把脑袋放空

很想把开怀填进我的心扉。。。

突然

有点落寞，我不懂该怎么说，让它在无声中逝去

或许，那个常欢笑的女生已离我远去。。。

是时候找回自我了吗？

The imcompleted mission

2010-08-05T09:34:00.003+08:00

Due to the unnoticed cancelled class, the whole gang had been gone to the main library to surf the Internet to rush up the assignment while I took the chance to write a journal. Hmm..I wondered when will my technical writing lecturer would like us to send her the journals. Well, I had been looking forward for the day that my missions to be completed...Nah..the missions are the followings:

Every girls hopes to being charming, gorgeous, pretty and SLIM! Nah...I just don't understand why I eat less,yet...T.T Perhaps I shall go for jogging more often already. Recently, my gang were established a goal i.e. body-shaping aligning with the thought of going to the prom night. It may sound ridiculous or funny to guys but do any girls wish for being criticized over their body shapes?No right?

Isn't the model looked gorgeous?

Let's see what will girls to achieve this goal...By eating body-shaping pills, by dieting, by jogging or yoga, by applying body-shaping cream and etcetera..I wondered which's the most effective way to get efficacy?Let's hope my goal will be established then.

The second goal of mine might be trying my best to love Manufacturing subject( Why girls need to know welding,filing and operating machines?!!!), Business Law and Management of Technology. Obviously, I lack of enthusiasm in studying these subjects which ain't my cup of tea. Hmm..I gotta try my best to participate in class discussion as well. Being proactive rather than being passive, yet I am kind of coward to speak up my opinions over the case studies. What the MOT lecturer said had beared in my mind i.e. a university student should act and think like a university student, being punctual, proactive and able to contribute ideas...

(to be continued)

Sem 1 of the second year...

2010-07-31T15:57:00.004+08:00

It is the first semester of the second year studying in UTHM. Due to the intake of the new students, the foreign language class has been reserved to them while the seniors have the suffer of transferring credit hours or session. After 2 weeks of settling in the new home in which I transferred out to live outside the hostel, I finally have time to update my territory.

My course's schedule has been changed in this semester .I am taking Japanese language course, business law and manufacturing workshop...It's sounded like I'm studying professional courses. Let's briefly talking what had I learnt recently..

Form the Japanese class, I have learned to write hiragana while struggling in writing katagana..Oh no! I hate keep practicing to write words like what I had done in kindergarten and primary school...However, it's fun that I can speak some Japanese words like ' ohaiyoo gozaimasu', 'gambatte kudasai', 'tadaima',' hajimemashitte doozoyoroshiku', and ' issyo issyori itekudasai' which signifies 'please stay with me as long as I live'... Haha..there' still a lot for learning!

Hmm...The business law is kind of a boring course while my group had been selected to conduct presentation for Contract Law topic.Uhh...it's seem like the subjects in this year are very difficult to learn.

The manufacturing workshop can be illustrated by the photos below:

In this new semester, there's a new change in my life. Hmmm..
It's nothing like brewing a nice cup of coffee or espresso...
A nice cup of coffee or espresso must not be too sweet or too bitter, and with the optimum temperature and has strong fragrant...
In order to make this nice cup of coffee or espresso, the person must be putting in hearts and souls otherwise the coffee might turned out to be a fiasco. I'm trying my best to put my foots forward to serve a nice cup of coffee or espresso...=)

18th of July- etching in my mind

2010-07-19T15:27:00.002+08:00

My Palace, My symphony of life and the rhythm in My heart

Some Artworks for Valentine's Day 2012- Happy Valentine's Day ,everyone!

Progress of my orthodontic treatment

22nd Birthday

Some craze before the end of year 2011

The craze during November and December

the fun with photoshop brush

Foods during university

Facebook pictures

Men from Mars while women from Venus?

untitiled

SIFE WORLD CUP 2011

Disappointment has flooded my heart!

University long semester break 2

University long semester break 1

4 month holidays

Mother's day contest

Mindy Gledhill- All About Your Heart ( Nie version)

Strangers, again

The Kübler-Ross Model

Too Much to Ask

Sometimes we had to say Goodbye in order to move on

our canon in d

Reflections of Moments in Life‏

bad mood

mixture~

Motivation

写给自己的信

Songs

being understanding

sadness

无题

i am sorry, my family..sorry to make you all worry of me. I will be tough.

photoshop trial 1

‎2♥11

Lost of mobile phone Nokia 6120

Songs

Souvenirs given

Bad day

Chinese New Year is Approaching

Will there be someone that could understand me?

An interesting post that I read

3-leaf clover

Floating in memories

放下．放空．放平．放心．放手

Memory span

untitled

丁当 我爱上的

丁当 我爱上的

My 21st birthday

Happiness

Hopeless

Essentials for the month

Postcards

December Month 2010

Exams 2010

Exam Week

友情风车

Small treats for my body and mind

19102010

Luxurious life

20101010

Thank God It's Today

September 2010

100th post

Before Mooncake Festival

involved in making 公仔饼( 猪笼饼) - Moon Biscuit

Tears

Anti-racism

Appreciate life

Terribly Sick

o(︶︿︶)oo(︶︿︶)oo(︶︿︶)o

Departures

突然

The imcompleted mission

Sem 1 of the second year...

18th of July- etching in my mind

丁当我爱上的

丁当我爱上的