Mindy Gledhill- All About Your Heart ( Nie version)

Mindy Gledhill- All About Your Heart( Nie version)

Another sweet,soft and gentle song that I played it all days long..*like*

I don't mind your odd behavior
Its the very thing I love
If you were an ice cream flavor
You would be my favorite one

My imagination sees you
Like a painting by Van Gogh
Starry nights and bright sunflowers
Follow you where you may go

Oh, I've loved you from the start
In every single way
And more each passing day
You are brighter than the stars
Believe me when I say
Its not about your scars
Its all about your heart

You are a butterfly held captive
Small and safe in your cocoon
Go on you can take your time
Time is said to heal all wounds

Chorus

Like a lock without a key
Like a mystery without a clue
There is no me if I cannot have you

Chorus

No matter how hurt is the scar but the heart that matters most..

Quoted from Michelle Lim

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Recently, indulging in reading up lyrics and quotes..Somehow, the words touched the heart.

Anyway, gotta pen-off here for at least a month.. Gonna put full focus on studies.. =)

I WANNA GET 3.5 ++ AGAIN! Have faith in heart~

Mustn't spoil my own future with my own hands, so may the heart listen to me to stay calm with concentrated minds too~

Strangers, again

The video had illustrated the stages that a relationship will go through. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable. Well, we started out being strangers and eventually we are strangers to each other again.. Hmm..

- The cbox will be deleted upon too many unknown's advertisement postings..-

miss the previous comments in the cbox, yet all were covered by the ads..huh...

The Kübler-Ross Model

The busy week had been finally ended after completing the tons of assignments. Today, my housemates and I had been going to two famous temples in Batu Pahat in order to soothe our minds. This would be a hard semester for me to go through but I believe that I can progress further if I hold tight on the belief. Everything happens for a reason.. Hmm, the reason, i shall let the time to prove it or perhaps there's never have an answer for that. Anyway, I got the fortune tally which shows me better future ahead, and I hope it will truly happen to me =)

Life is just as fragile as the heart. R.I.P hui en's friend. Sometimes, we often dwell over the past and could not fill the depression with joys, and eventually end our life. During the sad moments, what we need the most are someone who can give us positive comforts and advices, or just a pair of ears to listen to us. I would say that friends and family play important roles as they are the ones who will be there as listeners and supporters when you feeling so down as if the world is ending.

Hereby, I would like to share an article that I read at noon i.e. 'The Kübler-Ross Model', which is commonly known as the The Five Stages Of Grief. I found that most of us will experience the stages below depressively when undergo some significant events.

The 5 stages, popularly known in its abbreviated form DABDA, include:

1. Denial — "I feel fine."; "This can't be happening, not to me."
   Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of positions and individuals that will be left behind after death.
2. Anger — "Why me? It's not fair!"; "How can this happen to me?"; '"Who is to blame?"
   Once in the second stage, the individual recognizes that denial cannot continue. Because of anger, the person is very difficult to care for due to misplaced feelings of rage and envy. Any individual that symbolizes life or energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.
3. Bargaining — "Just let me live to see my children graduate."; "I'll do anything for a few more years."; "I will give my life savings if..."
   The third stage involves the hope that the individual can somehow postpone or delay death. Usually, the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle. Psychologically, the individual is saying, "I understand I will die, but if I could just have more time..."
4. Depression — "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"; "I'm going to die... What's the point?"; "I miss my loved one, why go on?"
   During the fourth stage, the dying person begins to understand the certainty of death. Because of this, the individual may become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the time crying and grieving. This process allows the dying person to disconnect from things of love and affection. It is not recommended to attempt to cheer up an individual who is in this stage. It is an important time for grieving that must be processed.
5. Acceptance — "It's going to be okay."; "I can't fight it, I may as well prepare for it."
   In this last stage, the individual begins to come to terms with his mortality or that of his loved one.

Okay, I seems like still being around the stage of denial, anger and bargaining. Huh! Bad progress, but I wish for the day that I will say " I am fine" and I truly mean what i spoken that time.

You can’t change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future.

“Never allow anyone to rain on your parade and thus cast a pall of gloom and defeat on the entire day. Remember that no talent, no self-denial, no brains, no character, are required to set up in the fault-finding business. Nothing external can have any power over you unless you permit it. Your time is too precious to be sacrificed in wasted days combating the menial forces of hate, jealously, and envy. Guard your fragile life carefully. Only God can shape a flower, but any foolish child can pull it to pieces.”

~ Og Mandino quotes Check out this book at Amazon.com:

Too Much to Ask

Too Much to Ask

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely

I wish someone could cure this pain

Its funny when you think its gonna work out

Til you chose weed over me, you're so lame

I thought you were cool until the point

But up until the point you didnt call me

When you said you would

I finally figured out youre all the same

Always coming up with some kind of story

Everytime I try to make you smile

You're always feeling sorry for yourself

Everytime I try to make you laugh

You can't

Youre too tough

You think you're loveless

Is that too much that I'm asking for?

I thought you'd come around when I ignored you

So I thought you'd have the decency to change

But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning

'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself

You can't see the world through a mirror

It wont be too late when the smoke clears

'Cause I, I am still here

But everytime I try to make you smile

You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself

Everytime I try to make you laugh

You stand like a stone

Alone in your zone

Is it too much that I'm asking for?

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

Can't find where i am

Lying here

Alone I fear

Afraid of the dark

No one to claim

Alone again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself

You can't see the world through a mirror

It wont be too late when the smoke clears

'Cause I, I am still here

Everytime I try to make you smile

You're always feeling sorry for yourself

Everytime I try to make you laugh

You can't

You're too tough

You think you're loveless

It was too much that I'm asking for

this fits my life like you don't know.

Guess that You Don't Even Bother...

Guess that You Don't Even Bother

I never have the chance to say goodbye,

Perhaps you are just meant too much,

But sooner or later I’m gonna have to let go,

In order to move on my journey,

Instead of holding tight to the past.

My heart is an open window,

Things just come and go,

But nobody ever stays like he/she promises.

But if you stop by and listen to it carefully,

You will notice it is broken piece by piece.

No one is going to last forever,

People leave and people change.

Sometimes,

we're left alone wondering why our life became hell,

But sometimes we are left wondering

how we met the people that shaped us,

made us into who we are now.

Sometimes,

I don't even know how could the story ever started,

and how it ended with...and do you want to know the worst part?
i never got my last goodbye, no i love you, no nothing.
just tears, pain and heart ache.

Loving you doesn't scare me,

Just the thought that you don’t love me, it does.

I think about you more than i should

but my mind doesn't seem to care, and neither do I.

Sometimes, i wonder if you love me for the things i've done

or that you love me because of who I am;

Or because I am the person who see's you

for everything you don’t see yourself as.

Yeah, life is just like a merry-go-round,

with ups and downs...

People used to say stand up where you fell,

but I would say lie there till there's the time to stand up again.

Some people wish for luxury,

And others wish for health,

But what do i wish for? I wish for you to be happy.

So that I will be too...=)

Love shouldn't hurt like it does

our canon in d

Boredom stroked inevitably when faced the tons of on-hand assignments. Reading back some abandoned blogs, bits and pieces of memories just appeared in my minds again. Instead of reminiscing over it again, I spent my noon for watching two episodes of Ghost Whisperer (A newlywed with the ability to communicate with the earthbound spirits of the recently deceased overcomes scepticism and doubt to help send their important messages to the living and allow the dead to pass on to the other side). Well, the plots of each episode just touched my heart and i got with weary eyes. Uhh.. what will you wish to tell your husband/wife if you passed away and didn't get a chance to say goodbye? The old man requested Melinda to help her to pass the message to his wife," Tell her I want her to keep having a glass of champagne every friday night, I want her to light the fire as we always did, and make our secret toast to the moon and stars like we always did. And tell her never to feel alone. "

Death might be just the final destiny we would go through,

but will we leave with no regrets?

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you?

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Aaron Angello - Our Canon in D

I wrote a song for you

I don't know if you'll listen to

But if you do

I don't think you

Will understand the poetry

Don't think I'll let you go

So easily, girl you don't know

The depths to which

I understand

Just how much you were meant for me

I had a dream last night

That we somehow had made it right

And everything

Was new and green

And we could dance eternally

But then the sun came out

And I woke up to face the doubt

That you and I

Would ever see

Each other as we used to be

#Chorus:

Can't understand

How the feeling that we know we had

Could just be abandoned

Be tossed into the wind

So easily

It cannot be

You know it meant too much

When in the end

After everything is said and done

See, we chose to spend

An eternity without

A melody

A symphony

A life without our Canon in D

I've heard a story told

About a staircase made of gold

That winds its way

Up through the clouds

And stops at Heaven's door

And if some day I stand

Before that door without your hand

Wrapped up in mine

I'll sit right down

And wait forever more

Repeat #chorus

See

The sun is sinking low

It's time for me to go

And try

To just get by

Bye

Bye

Just had some fairy tale dream on my mind again..I guess all girls are the same, hoping to capture stacks of photos with the loved ones and perhaps have some nice moments to be displayed through videos during wedding. I wish this song will be sung by my prince one day..Perhaps someone play this song with guitar =)

Reflections of Moments in Life‏

Reflections of Moments in Life‏ Here goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a God send and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.They may teach you something you have never done.They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.Believe it, it is real.. But only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.Your job is to accept the lesson,love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

bad mood

Okay, sometimes feelings are just hard to be expressed through words..

My mood today was as bad as the weather. =(

mixture~

Today, we had an interview for our hubungan etnik assignment regarding hokkien with a superb woman. She doesn't look like someone who is having sickness from the way she talked, and she is open-minded to share with us about her experience, opinions about life, family, love and even relationship. My friends and I are very agreed with one of the sentences she said in which," 婚姻最后的不是爱情，而是一种责任、依赖、感情和习惯。" It means a relationship/ marriage is not composed of love after all, it is left with responsibility, dependency, feeling and customary. Seriously, I hope that the one I am going to be together for the whole life is someone who can share his happiness and sadness with me (sharing thoughts), communicate with me whenever problem arises, comfort me or hold me tight when I am in need of his supports. Somehow, what she said is really meaningful, the moment you are with this person, you are sure that you love her/him, but could you be sure that you will still love her/him next month, next year or 1 year after or....?!

She had shared with us about how she communicate with her sons who were sent to singapore to study. For me, her educational method is differed from my mom who stresses about my studies and I don't be allowed to hang out or watch tv during exam periods while she lets her children to have their own ways to study and give pressures when in need. uh... I feel amazed by her sons who can be so independent of their parents. This is the quote found from her fb info, giving me and my gang some thoughts again...=)

最觉得被爱的，
不是他吻你或云雨缠绵时，
而是他轻轻伸出手，
把你的手紧握在掌中，
珍而重之！
用心握过你手之人，
即使无缘，
他心里必定爱过你！

我爱你,不光因为你的样子，还因为，和你在一起时，我的样子。 我爱你，不光因为你为我而做的事，还因为，为了你，我能做成的事。 我爱你，因为你能唤出，我最真的那部分。 我爱你，因为你穿越我心灵的旷野，如同阳光穿透水晶般容易。 ——[爱尔兰]罗伊·克里夫特

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The magnitude-8.9 offshore quake struck at 2:46 p.m. local time and was the biggest to hit Japan since record-keeping began in the late 1800s. It ranked as the fifth-largest earthquake in the world since 1900 and was nearly 8,000 times stronger than one that devastated Christchurch, New Zealand, last month, scientists said.

‎* 现在全东京电话都不能用，只有网络。所有人这时候都在走路回家，电车瘫痪。日本人只担心没食物。店长还很敬业的开店，怕大家没食物吃。只有超市关门，货物都倒了，无法营业。

*几百人在广场避震完毕，整个过程，无一人抽烟。服务员在跑，拿来一切毯子，热水，饼干。所有男人帮助女人，跑回大楼为女人拿东西 ，接来电线放收音机。几个小时后，人散，地上没有一片垃圾。

* 地震後，日本三得利公司宣布所有販售機將免費供應飲料！日本的711和全家全部免费提供食品和饮水！渴了，自动贩卖机免费；饿了，便利店免费；累了，大超市开放避难；寂寞了，公众电话免费；听不懂日语，电视台中文喊话教怎么避难。這就是國家形象，日本雖然受災，日本人卻給世人上了一課。
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* 一日本网友说：说句心里话，虽然我在日本，但其实庆幸是发生在日本，不然死伤人数肯定很恐怖，我相信全世界只有日本才可以把死伤降到最低！

这就是亚洲强国的力量！

The attitudes of how Japanese lending out their helping hands to each other after the devastation of the earthquake disaster should be learnt by all of us. The spirits, the kind-heartness, disciplines embedded in them shall be learnt by us when we face any disaster in time. When we questioned that how could their country's people have the ability to do so even they face the disaster, we often get the answer i.e." their education is better, their technology is more sophisticated,they had experienced all these disasters and they have predicted this might happen, their president are more charismatic, their country is at top rank of development"... I would say that all these answers are just excuses! Well, not to mention the country's name, experiencing various times of flood, I don't see the government have done any better approaches in handling all these. Moreover, this is just a small natural disaster compared to earthquakes, tsunami, eruption of volcanoes and etc. Huh..i opine that a developing (developed) country is not having a nice palace, huge and tall buildings, but have the appropriate approaches to aid its people whenever disaster come.

Anyway, truly bless and pray for Japan and hopefully the quake will not affect other countries which lie on "the ring of fire".

p/s: When you hear about the happening of this disaster, who is the one who appear in your mind? Do appreciate the people that you love! Life may just gone within seconds ...

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Had been exhausted because of loads of assignments to rush with,tests preparations, interviews, Sife thingy, and on 11/3/2011-my health's alarm has been shown up red alert... Cough+ Flu + fever...=( I hope my body could be recovered before next Tuesday.. Gonna prepare for test~

p/s: thanks to chia pei who cooked porridge for me as I lost my taste buds during sick..Indeed, I felt the warmth of the sisterly friendship. Honestly, I felt touched!

I know miracles don't happen, but I'm still waiting to see if you'll make an effort.

Motivation

When I woke up this morning
lying in bed,I asked myself:
What are some of the secrets of success in life?
I found the answer right there, in my very room.

** The Fan said:
Be Cool
** The Roof said:
Aim High
** The Window said:
See The World
** The Cook said:
Every minute is precious
** The Mirror Said:
Reflect before you act
** The Calendar Said:
Be Up To Date
** The Door said:
Push hard for your Goal

Carry a Heart that Never Hates.
Carry a Smile that Never Fades.
Carry a Touch that Never Hurts.
HAVE A PURPOSEFUL DAY!



# Quoted from Dhamma TI

写给自己的信

写给自己的信。。。

忽然，很想醉，是因为早已心碎；

忽然，很想睡，是因为心里早已疲惫，

忽然，很想喝一杯咖啡，是因为要映衬内心的苦味；

忽然，很想一个人颓废，是因为再没有什么人让我不累！

由于寂寞,我选择了挣脱.

由于清醒,我选择了沉思.

由于看不见未来,我选择了放弃.

由于放弃,我选择了眼泪.

由于割舍,我选择了释然.

由于释然,我选择了坚强.

心里很明白，心内的那个小孩不快乐了很久很久。几乎有好几个月都处于悲伤状态~

一個人，不管做什麼，
一定會有正面的評價與負面的評價；

何必那么在乎？然而我在意每个人对我的评价~

当得不到别人的认同，内心感觉空虚，

是缺乏了活出自己的勇气，

或者是想要证明些什么。

此外，对（失去）逝去的东西还抱着希望，

明知道那只会带来失望，还期待什么？！

如果能重来

你选择如何地去对待

你是否会把之前的回忆抛开

你又是否会确保不会奢求更多的重来

到底要有多少次重来

我们才会真正地去接受

眼前的 事实/真相.

最近的事情，让我很疲倦、很想放弃。

呐喊过、流泪过、堕落过。。。

说过自己要坚强，不再去寻找答案、不去对不相信的人解释。。。

我一定要办到。

只能当去年是人生中不可避免的起承转和期，

不能再放纵自己那么的懦弱、忧郁，

两次就够了，但两次的伤害带来的痛苦，

也不及懦弱的自己带给自己的压抑的心情、压力来的大。

有那么疼我的父母，家人，还要哀怨吗？

该改变自己的想法，希望能金蝉脱壳，还回真实的自己。

我活着，不是为了你们的欢呼声、掌声，

而是为了自己的将来。

Songs

Thanks to xiu wen who shared this @fb..Finally found this song which I kept humming the chorus part recently. Hmm.. didn't notice that JS do have many nice songs until I checked from youtube.

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间那条界线
慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉
在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好像只是昨天
我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你
浪花掠过沙滩边境(海风就像你的呼吸)
我又看见我们的脚印(那曾是回忆的痕迹)
如果遇见幸福的机率要千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你
我才发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你
woo~~~~
终于发现我比想像中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认的
我比想像中爱你

所有的“我不懂”其实还是有一点懂；

每一次“我不在乎”背后都有一点点在乎;

每一次“我没事”背后都还是有那么一点伤痛。

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I wish that I could play this song on guitar~

也许有一天　我会爱上你
也许有一天　我们在一起
也许有一天　等一个也许
也许有一天　我们都忘记

如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹

也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记

就算一切都会过去　还是应该伤心
当你睁开你的眼睛　看一看我的心

如果一切都会过去　不如留点回忆
当我看着你的眼睛　我等的是奇迹　（我等的是奇迹）

也许有一天　你会想起我
也许有一天　我们都忘记

也许有一天　我们都忘记

能不忘记吗？

being understanding

Well, everyone of us is created with different attitudes, personalities, and etc. Sometimes,we get frustrated, down, depressed that why people don't understand us, but we couldn't blame them as not everyone could put themselves in our shoes.Some people believe that you have to experience what i experience in order to understand how they feel and not by just the phrase "I understand how you feel.." or " it will be the past soon, you will get over it". Sometimes, i feel people are so selfish that they only think about themselves but not the feelings of others. I read from an recent article, perhaps if i put it in a nicer way, maybe they are just not understanding enough and they can't put themselves in your shoes.

Well, I am not a perfect person who always fail in managing my emotions, but at least I am going to try my best to be understanding enough. ^^..( Hopefully I will reduce my question of asking ' Why can't you understand me?'). After all, I just felt funny after I asked that, as the answers from others might be" why should I understand you?!"... SILLY ME..

Nah, I am trying to improve myself to be a better person. A person who aged up to 21 right now is supposed to have maturity to handle stress and emotions well.. Hmm, hopefully I can improve in this.

H.I.A.T.U.S .. Hiatus

Recently edited the picture above with different effects, somehow looking at it, I felt calm..(I don't know why..)

There are some interesting and meaningful phrases I read from Facebook :

• 不要做刺猬 ,能不与人结仇就不与人结仇 ,谁也不跟谁一辈子 ,有些事情没必要记在心上 ...
• 没有十全十美的东西，没有十全十美的人，关键是清楚到底想要什么。得到想要的，肯定会失去另外一部分。如果什么都想要，只会什么都得不到。
• 纠缠，如同一根橡皮筋，时刻拉着自己，稍点就感受到那紧迫的束缚，让人感觉厌倦和疲劳，慢慢的就会开始有了逆反心理，然而这一种紧密的力量把这样的两个人连在一起，系在了一起。一个拽，一个跑，彼此因为对方感觉到自己的存在，不空虚，不寂寞.
• 真正的矛盾，不是不理解一个人，而是你不会宽容它的缺点

Anyway,calvin, if you read my blog, i wish to tell you that let's just entail forgiving the person. Perhaps we shall cheer for knowing the truth earlier although we hate accepting all that had happened, take care..We experience a loss or betrayal and are filled with hurt and anger. We blame the person who wronged us as the cause of our pain. At this point, we're not considering that we have a choice about how to respond. We're just feeling wounded by the offense.

Read more: http://www.thirdage.com/divorce/the-four-stages-of-becoming-a-forgiving-person#ixzz1Ebkjhf48

ps: Thanks to er xuan who sent me this article..

My sun is rising up again...

Thanks to those who have shared many meaningful articles, their bittersweet stories with me..

The aids you all gave, the trust you all have in me, the supports you all gave...

I really felt touched and appreciative with the presence of you all.

Thank you..

I will be fine and learn to be tough..

sadness

In drama, movies, and so on
the actors always claimed that they are having heartache during certain circumstances,
but how many know what it really feels like
it's like the chambers of your heart
shrinking immediately with no blood can pass through,
suffocating is the best described
and
do you know
I feel that every time

when realizing that there's none I really can trust of...

and there's none I can share my sorrows with..

The world is cruel with so many double-faced person around..

The person you are trusted with may actually doing so many tactics behind..

My life is sickening with the presence of you.. I really hate what you have done..

And the person I cared the most doesn't trust in what i said and done..

the sorrow will pass,

the happiness will soon follow,

and being me,

just await the time,

for the dark to go.