Songs

There are something which are impressive that I wish to share with..

1)Listen by Jess Lee


I love her singing..indeed she is very talented in singing! She really touched my heart with her songs!

2)勇敢by Jess Lee



This song was previously sang by Ah Mei. I noticed this going-to-be superstar from Facebook fan page few days ago. It's a touching song and the lyrics are well written. (This song had me making approaches to reach out for the person that day. )Hmm.. I love the way she sang!

3) A Japanese song lyrics to be shared.. Well, I was shocked of knowing the meaning of the lyrics after looking at the translation. Thanks Jen Wei for introducing this song to me..

Spontania - Now And Forever (feat. Ito Yuna)

Lyrics: Spontania, Ito Yuna, Jeff Miyahara
Music: Spontania, Ito Yuna, Jeff Miyahara, RYLL, coco

I won’t forget you for as long as I live
We can’t go back
You will always be close to my heart
Even now

I always took it for granted
Seeing you happily by my side

Then I started to see it all change
I wanted to warm your hand that was always shivering

Even if I love someone else, I can’t let you be just a memory
It doesn’t matter where I end up, I just want to see you again

*Even now I want to see you, I’ve been thinking about you
Even now I still haven’t forgotten that Love Song
My lonely heart full of Memories
Hold me like you did that day, One More Time

I wanted to thank you but I couldn’t while you were around
I’m sorry that we broke up.
At the end, I’d like to call out your name once more

You’re still smiling on my cell phone
You still look so caring to me, I can’t erase your pic even if I wanted to

We were like kids as we joked with each other
And I miss carrying you around on my back

Time has passed since then and someday I should forget this pain
But you taught me the meaning of love and I can’t let you go

(Repeat*)

“I’m lonely,” I can’t bring myself to say those words
The world has come to nothing

You know I love you, even now

If you had stayed with me, I would’ve made you happier than anyone
Fly Away to that day, to that place

Even now I want to see you, I’ve been thinking about you
Even now I still haven’t forgotten that Love Song
My lonely heart full of Memories
Hold me like you did that day, once more

I hear you call
I hear you say my name
Tonight, I’ll remember you

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为什么“爱”里面有个友字？是不是代表着爱情的开始是来着友情，或是结束时也该仍是朋友？...有意思~

Did anyone of us notice the word of love in Mandarin Chinese has the word of Friend?Is that actually meaning love begins with friendship and if the love ends, the both people should still remain being friends at least？ hmm..

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  Wan Tian haha..if you notice the traditional word...actually is not 友,but more like 久....另外宝盖儿通常是用于受保护的意思，例如：家，宝等。所以根据繁体，爱是把那个人长长久久保护并保存在心里。
  by the way, just my point of view ya..XD

I like the way she interpreted the chinese traditional word of 'love' i.e. love is embedding the person inside the heart forever...

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There's an interesting page which discuss why would couples broke up, parents divorced and so on. Well, most of the reasons that such occasion occur are because of lack of commitment, cannot reach the expectations of each other, lack of communication and etc. I opine that there's no one can be 100% compatible with in the world. There's none of us will be 100% perfect so it's ridiculous to expect the one you love to be the one that you wish her to be. Someone told me that relationship= love+feeling+communication+tolerance+honesty/trustworthy...Now I think that appreciation should be added into the equation.

有些東西，無需想起，但从沒忘記 ……mi manchii molto

Souvenirs given

A random post to fill up my blog territory here:

MY COLLECTION OF SOUVENIRS GIVEN BY FAMILY MEMBERS & FRIENDS (YEAR 2011)

From Korea: a cute pencil case and keychain given by my close roommate =)

My youngest sister had followed my dad to Taiwan (annual company trip) this year. As I study at another state, I lost the chance to join the trip again! ish.. my another sister had followed to travel to China and had visited to China Exposition during the previous year.. Sigh~ When I can join the annual trip with my dad?! T.T

Taiwan souvenirs given by family and hui shan

According to my sis, this is given by a hotel staff.

cute slippers keychain , well, it's very costly!

Spongebob mobile phone accessories.. bought from theme park in Taiwan

handmade soap given by hui shan, thanks!

Bad day

Last Thursday~

It was a terrible day that I had gone through where something bad had happened to me unexpectedly. It's my own mistake for carrying two luggages with a backpack on my back when go back to KL. I did not sleep well on the previous night as something had happened and indeed it ruined my mood. Huh...

It was around 5pm which was the rush hour in KL.The train was crowded when it arrived at the station of Bandar Tasik Selatan. I felt my right body being pushed into the train but I thought that it was normal since many people disembarked while the people standing behind me were just rushing into the train. I was managed to enter the train and standing near the door. After putting down my luggages on the floor whilst the door of ktm closed, I tucked my hand inside my right pocket of my jeans and found that the phone wasn't there. I quickly reach for it in my left pocket yet it wasn't there too. I began to feel frightened and quickly searched for my handset in luggages and backpack. It's gone! I asked the people who standing around me if they ever see anyone taking something out from my pocket. The feeling of losing handset was very terrible and I felt so hopeless! Huh..I realized that I had been pickpocketed when the people disembarked out from the train that moment. I had been asking people around to lend me handset to call my parents and sister yet I was very unlucky to have them not picking the phone. I had the Hobson's Choice to call him to contact my sister since I am using other's handphone for few moments. I felt so ashamed of myself for encounter accident again when I reached KL. I was even being advised by some passengers for being extra be careful when taking KTM.

Huh...luckily my mom was contacted finally and she reached to fetch me. I burst into crying when met her,knowing that it's the second time I met accident when came back from Johor. Naturally, I was being scolded by mom for not being careful and bringing two luggages on hand. Shall I felt relieved that I am still alive and my purse was not gone? I had to pay RM15 for the sim card to be replaced. When I recalled back, the lost handset was almost out of battery thus the credits were not being used. Yet, my heart is still bleeding ever since I lost the phone as many memorable messages had been kept inside the handset and now, they are forever gone. I also regretted that I didn't copy the phone numbers and therefore it became a great problem for me later on to try to contact the persons whose names were kept in the phone. Sighed...Am I looked very blur, easy to be cheated or pickpocketed?But I do know that it was my mistake too for not being careful in the crowded area. Sighed! Minutes before being pickpocketed, I even had used my handset to try contacting my home! Argh!!!

I really hate the society in KL. nowadays..The main factor for all the social skulduggery in KL. or any big cities is that the country has recruited too many foreigners especially Negroid. Look, I am not having discriminative attitude towards them but the recruitment of foreigners in malaysia is seemed to be out of control nowadays. Our country cannot track the lost mobile phone like some other countries out there.. Haiz.. can't our government or authorities enhance themselves and take draconian measures towards the social decadence?!

I miss my Nokia 6120...I couldn't buy it from marketplace anymore...=( I felt so regretted for not backup my phonebook and certain messages~ I felt awfully upset because parents took this accident openly and dad even got me a handset yesterday. It's a lesson to be learnt and I really have to be cautious when going anywhere from now onwards.

Nevertheless, I really appreciated the help given by the KL.central guy, the uncle and the malay auntie who had lent me to use their handsets to contact people for help...

I miss the days I used to have smooth paths to move on safely..

I miss the days I used to be cheerful and brave...

I miss the days I don't put up fake smiles..Huh...seriously, when the bad days will leave me?

Chinese New Year is Approaching

Chinese New Year is approaching and followed by the special day that I once looking forward to..Anyway, day-dreams may disappear somehow...

Well, I am having fever with Apple Products out of sudden... I have strong affinity towards Apple brand i-touch, iphone or ipad..Uh..yet I am out of finance..Apart from that, I wish to get myself a DLSR soon, thinking of capturing the nice snapshots around me.It's like finding back my interests.Sooner or later, I will be busier for SIFE tasks and seriously I do hope that my emotion problem might not ruin things by now onwards.Holding the post of multimedia manager brings the significance of responsibility, and I have to start brainstorming how to use flash softwares, making videos and presenting nice slides and so on.

I am still waiting for some miracles, hmm.. the answers~

Ps: Somehow I miss my true smiles, laughs...

Will there be someone that could understand me?

It seems like I have no freedom to do the things I want, I desire to...Sometimes, in my life, I felt that the journey I walk through is getting harder and harder even I always keep the faith that everything will get better in time. My wound never get better, indeed it's pain~ My world has become so dark and empty with the hope being ruined..I am just feel like breaking down and hoping to leave to somewhere there will be having no sorrows, no troubles, no weeps, ....

I am tired of explaining things that I don't even know how to express it out now...You don't have to believe in me if you don't trust me. I am sick of everything that is happening to me, my family and my aunts...My family has no peace of facing a sicko neighbor who has(had) threatening the life of ours. My house may be burned by her one day and the whole family is living in worries. My beloved aunt is having severe sickness nowadays and I could only pray hard to have her being safe and recovered. How could I burden up my family when they have faced problems too? Shall I still begging for concerns from them or making them worried?! Can anyone knows how I feel right now? I am feeling lost, hurt, and I am really helpless! I wish I could run away from everything!

To whom that finds it fun to be fooling around, you don't know what it's like until you wear the shoes in mine! Don't throw any useless and stupid blames on me when you don't even know what is really happening! Give me some peace of mind...

It's said to be everyone has his or her own problem to face with, I don't hope to burden up my friends who have their own obstacles too..Somehow, I just hope that there will be someone I can rely on when I need help the most and now I just feel no one will be there for me..

And all my sorrows made their bed beside me

The shame, the disgrace, and the brutality,

Leave all the sorrows behind me,

Trying to overwhelm with calmness,

Being the true self of mine...

An interesting post that I read

I read the following article from my friend and I found it meaningful..

ONCE a professor asked his students:
"Why do we shout in anger? Why do people shout at each other when they are upset?"
The students thought for a while before one of them said:
"We shout because we lose our calm."

"But why shout when the other person is just next to you? Isn't it possible to speak to him or her with a soft voice?"

The students gave various answers, none of which satisfied the professor.

Finally he explained: "When two people are angry with each other, their hearts distance. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the louder they will have to shout to hear each other through that great distance."

Then he asked: "What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly. Why? Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is very small."

"When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak - they only whisper and get closer to each other in their love. Finally they do not even need to whisper. They only look at each other, that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other."

So, when you argue, do not let your hearts get distant or say words that distance each other even more, or there may come a day when the distance is so great you will not find the path back to each other.

Floating in memories

I don't remember the days, but remember the moments we have had..

I am looking forward for the days I will start to be busy and stop floating in the memories..(O_o)

Hoping that the parachute could bring the sorrows away~

放下．放空．放平．放心．放手

放下．放空．放平．放心．放手

刘墉

新来的小沙弥，对什么都好奇。秋天，禅院里红叶飞舞，小沙弥跑去问师父：「红叶这么美，为什么会掉呢？」师父一笑：「因为冬天来了，树撑不住那么多叶子，只好舍。这不是『放弃』，是『放下』！」

冬天来了，小沙弥看见师兄们把院子里的水缸扣过来，又跑去问师父：「好好的水，为什么要倒掉呢？」师父笑笑：「因为冬天冷，水结冻膨胀，会把缸撑破，所以要倒干净。这不是『真空』，是『放空』！」大雪纷飞，厚厚的，一层又一层，积在几棵盆栽的龙柏上，师父吩咐徒弟合力把盆搬倒，让树躺下来。小和尚又不解了，急着问：「龙柏好好的，为什么弄倒？」
师父脸一整：「谁说好好的？你没见雪把柏叶都压塌了吗？再压就断了。那不是『放倒』，是『放平』，为了保护它，教它躺平休息休息，等雪霁再扶起来。」

天寒，加上全球金融危机，香油收入少多了，连小沙弥都紧张，跑去问师父怎么办？
「少你吃？少你穿了吗？」师父瞪一眼：「数数！柜里还挂了多少衣服？柴房里还堆了多少柴？仓房里还积了多少土豆？别想没有的，想想还有的；苦日子总会过去，春天总会来。你要放心。『放心』不是『不用心』，是把心安顿。」

如果不曾拿起，怎么放下？

如果不曾拥有，怎么放空？

如果不曾独立，怎么放平？

如果不曾挂念，怎么放心？

如果不曾抓紧，怎么放手？

人生就有很多欲望和追求，就如树不停长出的叶子，不能也不可能留住所有的叶子，这时就要学会放下。叶子再美，树也承受不住。在人生的路途中放下过重的行李，这并不意味着放弃，为了走得更远，必须做到轻装简行。放空即虚怀若谷，不会在于他人的赞扬中自我膨胀。在遇到强大的压力和挫折时，要学会放平，休养生息。在困境中，不急燥，学会把心安顿。

2011年的新一天、第一天，期待着自己能比较沉静，能学会放下．放空．放平．放心．放手。